𝐈𝐧𝐭𝐨 𝐈𝐭 | 𝘏. 𝘐𝘸𝘢𝘪𝘻𝘶𝘮𝘪

𝘀𝗶𝘅𝘁𝗲𝗲𝗻

"OUR TEXTS,"

.*ೃ : *✧･ﾟ:* *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ ✧･ﾟ: .*ೃ

somethings not right. i've been alone, but not all at one time. my tears ricochet. i'm feeling so confused, i don't know what to do.

it's been break, a week in. a week a day until new years. hoping this new year will be filled with less chaos.

i saw Makki and Mattsun a few times. family has been in town. Iwaizumi hasn't been talking.

the mystery of love. my calls have been ignored. texts have been dry, responses being hours to even days later.

i understand that we're not dating, i understand that he has other priorities, i understand he's busy.

he would remind me that i wouldn't make time for him. we have all of the time in the world, we have time like there's no tomorrow.

i got him a small gift, and when i gave it to him earlier in the week, he had a small reaction.

our texts,

.*ೃ : *✧･ﾟ:* *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ ✧･ﾟ: .*ೃ

wednesday 10:42  PM

Y/N L/N

hi are you avoiding me or something

Iwaizumi Hajime

No I'm just busy rn

yesterday 12:21 AM

Y/N L/N

did you call me

yesterday 4:55 PM

Iwaizumi Hajime

No

Today 1:25 AM

Iwaizumi Hajime

I'm too tired to Fr
Ft

Y/N L/N

okay i'm sorry

.*ೃ : *✧･ﾟ:* *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ ✧･ﾟ: .*ೃ

i called him on tuesday at 11:42 PM, wednesday at 10:37 PM, and today at 1:25 AM.

all of those times he was awake, and active on social media. i don't mean to be clingy, i don't mean to be like this.

before we were seeing each-other we were best friends. constantly talking on the phone, constantly changing the ending.

i've been quite, not speaking, not wanting to speak. why.

why won't anyone notice, why won't you notice?

why can't anyone see my sore heart?

.*ೃ : *✧･ﾟ:* *:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ ✧･ﾟ: .*ೃ

author note:
short, but important, because it's how i'm actually feeling.

remember to pay attention to the people you love and care about, because at the moment i'm suffering from a sore heart.

that's the whole reason why the texts are so realistic, they are real.

i'd hate to have you feel that way, or witness someone feeling that way. you are loved and appreciated, even if someone doesn't show you that.

i'm trying to keep my heart warm, but it's hard due to neglect. the next chapter will be better. thank you.

-S <3