Never Again // COMPLETED

Chapter 12 - To Never Look Back

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Lea and I agreed that I will follow her around during their visit at the park while I take pictures.

It’s 4:30 in the afternoon and I only have 30 minutes to choose a picture and write a journal.

I scanned through the photographs and chose six of them.

I wrote my journal just fifteen minutes before my deadline and hit send.

Now I am going home and the image of Logan smiling at me made my heart flutter like there’s mayhem inside me.

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I scanned the fridge looking for something to eat as my phone buzzed loudly.

                Why are you avoiding me?

Maybe the world was spinning backwards and I forgot to fasten my seatbelt and heck, who the hell is this? Scared is understatement, I am more on terrified. I stared at the number for so long that I felt my eyes straining.

I blinked many time to remind my body how to function. I never had anyone text me anonymously and every word in the message feels like a threat to my entire being. I gathered enough courage and hit reply.

                Who is this?

I calmed myself. Maybe it was an old friend? The old friends I have are Lea and Sam and I haven’t seen Sam in ages. My heart may have stopped as I opened the reply.

                Dave baby.

I immediately deleted the message. I don’t know what will happen if Logan were ever to read this. I may get a phone upgrade because he will throw my phone for sure.

I hurried upstairs and took a warm shower to calm myself. Why would Dave even text me? And with a pet name?! Seriously? Why is he entering the picture when everything seems so perfect for me? Ugh screw this! I will never let Dave destroy whatever I had left after the first time.

I heard the door opened I felt a smile crept on my face. Logan. I felt safer knowing that his in the house.

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“How are you today, hmm?” he opened the door in the bedroom and hugged me tightly while I only have a towel.

I told Logan everything, sitting at the edge of the bed, about Lea and the schemes she had done. I told him that she fell for a boy who was unknowingly a member of a gang and he died leaving her with triplets. Proceeding with how my day ended with the little assignment Kishma assigned to me.

I heard him sigh and saw the look in his eyes. He wasn’t paying attention.

“Any problem dear?” I was a little hurt knowing that he didn’t listen to anything I just said. Good thing I omitted the part where Dave texted me. Or should I say it to get his attention? Something is wrong, I know it, I can feel it.

“Just a little stressed with work that’s all.” I know when he is lying. He massaged his temples with his hand.

I looked at him but he can’t look straight into my eyes then I finally felt it. My eyes teared up. I felt the betrayal, the barrier he built and the lust in his eyes. I looked down and stared at his hands and back at him. I can’t believe it. Is it what I think it is?

“Who is she?!” I managed to hide the croak in my throat. I waited. He raised his eyes to mine. Those bright blue eyes became dark like the deep of the ocean. Passionless and full of guilt.

“You’re sure a mind reader.” He pursed his lips together.

You know the face of the dear before the car lights approach it? That must have been my face. I was sinking with shock, fear and sadness. He cheated.

“I never slept with her. I swear.” He grabbed my hand as I posed to walk out the door.

“Then what it is Logan? Is it because I am not yet ready to give mine?” I was crying, hard. I can hear the hoarseness in my voice. I feel like all the life in me drained into the sink and I am left with just a body and no more soul.

“It was just a kiss.” He finally admitted and let go of my hand. He was looking down and I was still crying.

“And what’s next?” I looked away gathering my thoughts.

“Who is she?!” I repeated my previous question by this time, calmer but sadder.

“Assistant photographer from my Vogue pictorial.”

“It was just a one-time thin-“ I didn’t let him finish. I went to the bathroom sobbing like crazy. I must have felt asleep in the tub because when I woke up, I was already in bed with Logan’s t-shirt.

I sat up and put my hands in my chin.

Everything seems to mess up when I am happy. Why is this happening now? Now that I am completely happy with Logan. Or maybe I was the only one happy in the relationship. Maybe he’s not contented at all knowing that we never had sex. But is that all the reason he got to cheat on me. Of course it’s just a kiss. But every time I would think of kissing him, I would always remember that unfaithfulness he had. Or is he revenging because of the picture? I explained it him already. But did he believe me?

                I can’t kick him out of my house because he shouldered the bills since he’s staying here more than he is staying at his house. Should I leave? Should I take a vacation? What should a sane person do?

I picked up my phone and dialed Lea’s number.

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