KyRu Short Stories

◇ enca au: what makes a queen a lover ◇

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here's something pulled out of my notes :>>

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tag(s): angst (wala na ito lang talaga hehe)

/not proofread/

call her a coward and a weakling, but amihan doesn't really want to look everyone in the eyes, except ybrahim.

blame her eyes for showing everything she wants as much she knew everyone else's would be having the look of disapproval. and the only person who wouldn't ever do so is ybrahim because they both want the same thing: to be able to love each other freely.

willing herself to have her feelings locked dead, where her heart wouldn't make a mistake of wandering into, only left her shattered yet with so much more anguish to hold. it's been a while since the last time her eyes met those of someone else's -- the last time dating back to when ybrahim was free enough to pay their lira a visit, which also meant one of the ever rare chances they have these days to look at each other with their private, longing gazes, ones that could only reach out with a distance of at least five people in between.

the only comfort she'd ever have amidst the aftermath of one of the highest points of the great war between good and evil is ybrahim in all of his glory, but before she could ever do anything about it, two pairs of eyes at a time have her hopes bound beneath earth surface.

and amihan swears, if only she could escape everything that's holding her down; the crown, the throne, danaya and aquil's disappointment, alena's very much still existent feelings for ybrahim, emre and cassiopeia's honor over her head, imaw's advice of her having to do what she knows is right, her responsibility over an entire enchanted world -- just to be free to do anything she wants, even just for a day, she would wholeheartedly, eagerly, happily do so. she would love ybrahim with everything she has, and she would reciprocate everything ybrahim does without worrying about what everyone would say. they wouldn't stop at sweet whispers and hand kisses, they would be free! they would be free to bring all those attempted kisses to life and their hugs would last longer than they would ever want. she swears to love him more than he can ever comprehend, she would love him as if they never left anyone behind for a taste of happiness they both want for themselves. just a day. or three. or a week... or even just an entire night ?      please. a chance at loving each other loudly despite what the world would say. a chance to let their feelings scream over all the "hindi maaari" thrown at them without remorse. a chance to breathe without the suffocation of everyone pressuring her to lose her feelings for the love of her life as if she could ever do it.

it made her suddenly wonder, if she were to tell them, as a queen, to lose all their romantic feelings for their beloved, would they then understand how hard she has it?

"kung isusumbat ko sa inyo ang kanya-kanya niyong pag-ibig, tatantanan niyo ba ako sa aking nararamdaman na kahit kailan ay hindi ko mai-aalis sa aking puso? pare-pareho lamang tayong pinagtaksilan ng pag-ibig. batid ko ang kasalanan ko sa trono, ngunit batid ko rin lahat ng kailangan kong gawin bilang reyna kung kaya't pilit kong tinatalikuran ang lahat ng nararamdaman kong tiwali sa batas upang patuloy kayong paglingkuran. ngunit magkaganoon man, isa parin itong kalapastanganan para sa isang reyna. kaya ibinibigay ko sa inyo ang pagpapasya kung nararapat pa rin ba akong maging reyna ninyo at ng buong encantadia."

everyone gasped. "amihan--"

"binibigyan ko kayo ng pahintulot na ako'y litisin. pinagkakaitan ko rin ang aking sariling maglahad ng aking pangangatwiran upang maging mas madali para sa inyo ang pagpapasya. kung nagkakaintindihan tayo, ako'y magpapahinga na sa aking silid."

all the diwatas in the throne room looked at each other with evident shock in their eyes, even with guilt for some. while the rest broke into murmurs, the sanggres, imaw, aquil and muros remained silent.

lira, with tears in her eyes, held paopao by the shoulder and evictused to her mother's room, only to find no one there. she initially thought to report it to her ashtis but decided against it. the diwani trusted her mother, she knew the queen would eventually return from where she was. and it's probably the best resort for her at the moment. a temporary breath of relief by the stream where she first met ybrahim in her dreams.