BF or BFF?

Chapter twelve

I feel groggy in the morning. My eyes are sticky and my limbs are heavy. Maybe it's the result if me not sleeping until four o'clock? I wonder.

My mind replays what happened last night. Zayn was about to kiss me. And I turned away. Holy crap!

Why did I turn away? I mean, I like Zayn and all, but do I like him like THAT? I don't know! What if I had let him kiss me, then discovered later that I didn't have feelings for him? No, it's better this way. Zayn is my best friend and I don't want to loose that.

I hear someone moaning next to me. Zayn is waking up. Oh shit here it comes. Zayn opens his eyes

"Morning Mira!" He says brightly, a little too brightly.

"Morning," I say back "look Zayn-"

"Do you want breakfast? I'm hungry! I'm getting up, so if you want to eat you better get up too!" Zayn interrupts, grinning at me. I let out a sigh.

Zayn's reverting back to his I-did-something-so-lets-pretend-it-didnt-happen mode. Whenever he does something stupid he always likes to move in as if nothing has happened. Most times, it annoys me, but this time, I'm grateful.

"Yep! I'm hungry!" I say, getting up. I walk to the door. Zayn doesn't move "Zayn?"

"I'll be down in a minute" he sounds weird, so i turn to look at him

"Zayn," I say gently "if this is about the kiss-"

"I'm sorry," Zayn sighs "I shouldn't have done it, it was stupid, it wasn't supposed to happen. Lets just move on" I nod and exit the room. No matter how hard I try to hold them in, I can't help but let a few tears escape my eyes. Was it stupid? Does he really regret almost kissing me? Do I repel him? I'm not saying I want him to like me, but it still hurts.

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By the time I get to the kitchen, all traces of my tears are gone. I sit on a stool sigh.

"What's up?" I jump

"Holy crap Louis!" I say "you scared the shit out of me!" Louis smiles

"Damn right I did!" He laughs, clapping me on the shoulder "but seriously, what's up? Why the sigh?" In response, I sigh again

"It's-"

"Morning all!' Zayn skips into the kitchen, and ruffles my hair "what's for breakfast?" Louis grunts

"Make it yourself lazy ass!" He says, poking his tongue out

"Awww! You're such a meanie!" Zayn whines. He turns his puppy dog eyes to me "what about you Miranna? Will you make me breakfast? Please?" I shake my head

"Tough bikkies Malik!" I say "I'm going to dibs the shower!" I jump out of my seat and rush out of the room.

"Hey!" Louis yells "I want first shower!"

"Hang on! I...what do you call it?" I struggle to remember. I stop in the hallway, and Louis rushes last me

"Haha! The shower is mine!"

"Wait! I ETERNALLY DIBS THE SHOWER!" I yell, and Louis stops

"No way!" He complains "that's so not fair!"

"Is so!" I say smugly. Now the shower is mine forever! Mwah ha ha! Louis comes up to me

"So...what happened with you and Zayn?" He asks. Huh? How did he know!

"What are you talking about?" I say, not meeting his eye

"Oh come on! He called you Miranna!" Oh. I actually only just realised that. Whenever me and Zayn fight (which is pretty much never) he always uses my full name. Weird.

"Well..." I mumble, not sure if I should tell Louis

"You don't have to tell me if you don't want to" Louis says quickly. I look around, then pull him into the bathroom and shut the door

"Okay," I whisper "Zayn and I were having a tickle fight and-"

"Ooooo! I love those!" Louis squeals and I groan

"ANYWAY! Zayn stopped and was about to go to bed when....well....we kissed-"

"YOU WHAT?"

"Shhhh! Keep your voice down!" I hiss "and we didn't ACTUALLY kiss. I turned my head at the last minute!"

"What? Why?" I shake my head

"I don't know! Well, I do! Me and Zayn are best friends! If we go out it'll be so awkward! And if we break up so does our friendship! It's so complicated. Just this morning Zayn told me he was stupid and he shouldn't have tried to kiss me! Does that mean he doesn't like me? Am I ugly? I'm so confused!"

"Mira!" Louis hushes me "stop talking like that! You are certainly NOT ugly. Do you know how many girls would kill to have your body?" I blush

"Umm....thanks?" I mumble "but that still doesn't explain if-"

"Oh trust me," Louis winks "Zayn likes you" I gasp

"Are you sure? I mean, we've been friends for two years and he's never-"

"Do you know how much he's talked about you?" I stop

"He talks about me? What does he say?" Louis puts in a high voice and mimics Zayn

"I wonder what Mira's doing today? Should I call Mira? Mira's so funny! She's so nice! Did you hear about what me and Mira did today? And then he sighs happily and goes into dreamland, but I personally do not want to know what he's dreaming about-"

"You actually think he likes me? Like...LIKE likes me?" I whisper. I can't help it. My heart flutters a little. Louis nods

"He hasn't actually said the words 'I like Mira' but close enough" he nudges me "don't wait for him to come to you. Go get him!" I blush

"I can't! He's my best friend! It's weird!"

"Well do you like him?" Do I? Just thinking of those gorgeous brown eyes, jet black hair, lean muscles. Bubbling personality, that smile, that laugh, it all makes me blush and my heart jumps. I nod at Louis

"I guess.....I guess I do...." I mumble

"So make a move!" Louis says, exasperated "why is it so hard for you woman! You like him! He likes you! It's not the fucking Hunger Games!"

"What do I do?" I ask. Jeez. Me, asking Louis Tomlinson for flirting advice. What is the world coming to? Louis waggles his eyebrows

"Wear a short skirt? Flip your hair? Pole dance for all I care! Just do something! It's painful watching you two go along when it's so obvious you have feelings for each other!"

"Wait?" I say "is it that obvious?" Louis grimaces

"Yeah. Really. Everyone except you and Malik have noticed" I groan

"Oh great!"

"Take a chill pill Mira!" Louis says, putting his hands on my shoulders "just go out there, and get yourself a guy!" I nod

"Okay," I smile "but get out of this bathroom! If I'm going to be in any condition for serious flirting I have to shower!" I push Louis out the door and lock myself in. I turn in the water, strip, and step into the shower.

Okay Mira, calm down. It's just Zayn.

Why did I have to fall for Zayn Malik?