Poems Of My Life

I'm Tired!!

I'm tired, honestly I am.

Not just of work and school,

But life on a whole, this essence sucking whirlpool.

I'm tired of the restless nights,

Constant thoughts of suicide,

And never-endingly listening to you criticize

Me,

the person I am,

And the way I go about becoming who I want to be.

Every misleading word, every deceitful deed.

You hit me with your words, and just watch me bleed.

Then you patch me up, just to strike again with the sword I thought was sheath.

I'm tired, honestly I am

I have stripped of my joy, I have none left

I just want rest, not sleep, give me death

I want to be free, freedom from this life

This life where every day, no matter what form, it's another fight

Screw your principle, screw your say

I am just trying to be me, and you make wonder if that's even ok?

I dont do drug and I'm straight, not pan, not Bi, not gay

But I feel more and more a failure, because of you, with every passing day.

I'm tired, honestly I am.

And I'm currently expressing how I feel.

It might sound, please dont hold it against me.

But, honestly, it's getting to the point where I dont care.

I'm a hair away, from saying screw you, try I dare...

You,

Whom I have always looked up to and admired.

Not realizing your truth telling Lier.

Who fireproofs what he believes and set others to fire.

But why do I complain.

When my life, until I leave, is always be the same.

Same struggle, same heart ache, same freaking PAIN.

But I love you and that will never change.

That's, kind of, why I kept your name.

And you'll never see this, because it was written when I wasn't sane.

And if you do, just remember I will always love you the same.

Orville Edmondson.