To My Abusive Ex |editing| (Complete)

Dear Abusive Ex pt2

We were on your roof, got to it through your bedroom window. I stroked your hair, you were so beautiful in the moonlight. It was you and I, alone! I asked if you wanted to go inside, you said "No let's stay out here". When we did, you tried to talk me into a suicide pact. Asking " Will you die for me? Will you jump off this roof?". I hesitated, then shook my head.
"Will you go with me?" I asked.
"That's what a suicide pact is," You said.

      You suddenly got angry, mad that I wasn't answering the question quickly enough. I followed you inside, you turned around once I sat on the bed. "You said you would take a bullet for me? YOU LIAR!" You yelled.

"Taking a bullet and suicide are completely different things" I argued.

You shook your head, "I KNEW IT, YOU DON'T LOVE ME".

     I stared at her and stood up with anger " REALLY? I'm here even though my mother doesn't approve of you"

"GET OUT," You said.

      And I did. Next day, I attempted to take my own life- committing to our pact. However, you didn't fall through. While I was admitted into a mental hospital, you were having fun. But I have one question.

If I had jumped off the roof that night, would you have gone with me or stood there while my dead body laid on the grass?

Don't lie, I think I know the answer...