Little Things | °•Perciver•° [ON HOLD]

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Sorry it takes me so long to update and the chapters are short lately, but my mental health is not at its best right now.

(This part is technically venting, you don't have to read if you don't want to. Also, trigger warning for possible depression and self-harming.)

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I cannot focus on my studies enough because all I have been thinking about is how to come out to my parents because I can't take the misgendering anymore, but I know their reaction is going to be bad and I'm getting yelled at by them for this reason (the focusing on studying part), I think I'm getting depressed, it's getting harder and harder to laugh, I'm slowly losing interest in things I love doing, I've started self-harming again (I stop for a couple of days, cut again, and then do the same thing; it's been going on for about a week and a half now) and I feel shitty for that too because I was clean for like, three or for months now, flowers and animals/nature in general can't make me happy anymore and they were some of the things that could always make me happy no matter what, I feel more and more tired everyday, and I can't ask my parents for help because I know they will make me feel guilty and my mum would start crying and start saying things like 'What did we do?' and 'You have such a good life.' and 'We do everything for you, what would make you depressed?' and force me to come out which will end up way worse than it already is.

Also, just a clarification, I do not have a doctorate at psychology, and I'm not claiming to have depression just because I'm not well, I just believe it could be a possibility as I have a lot of symptoms.
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Sorry for all the ranting, just needed to talk to someone because I can only talk about that stuff with like, three of my friends and school hasn't started yet so I can't see them, so yeah.

Anyway, I'll be updating in a tomorrow,  the chapter's almost ready. Stay safe and stay hydrated, everyone. Bye<3.