am i really in love with her?

Caitlyn POV

as vi is telling me about her and her sister, all i did was admire how beautiful she is, that smile those eyes.... am i really in love with her? i lift my hand up and caressed her face. she grabs onto my fingers and closes her eyes.

i stand up, flustered.

"whats the matter cupcake?" vi says.

i loved when she called me that. i dont want her to know though.

"nothing." i say, even though i look like a tomato.

i try to change the subject.

"vi, do you need anything? like a shower or some food...?" i hope its not too much of a personal question.

"whatever. i dont care."

"well surely you'll need a shower, as we are going to be in front of all the councilmen. im pretty sure prison bathrooms aren't the best...."

"yeah whatever. as long as you come with me."

what did she just say? shes joking like usual. right?

"i- what?!" i say even more flustered than i was before.

"just kidding ya, cupcake. i like to mess around y'know."

i clear my throat. i chuckled, trying to ignore how red i was.

"do you need me to get it started for you?

"ill be fine cupcake. you worry too much."

vi walked to my bathroom and closed the door.

i start pacing around the room. why did vi say that? "as long as you come with me." the words sunk into my brain. i think she was serious.

she saw my reaction and brushed it off. does she feel the same way i do? nonsense. a topsider with an undercity girlfriend. no way, my parents would freak!

ive brought home girls before, but NONE of them have been undercity people. my thoughts are drowning me.

i hear the bathroom door open, its almost like vi opened it in a panic. she sees me pacing. her hair is soaking wet, and half dressed. shes so... beautiful. i get flustered again.

"nervous, cupcake?" she said with a smirk.

"get some clothes on!" i said trying to avoid that i look as red as vi's hair.

"fine geez. yknow i could hear you pacing when i was in the shower right? you're such a loud pacer."

oh my gosh. are you kidding me? was i really that loud? my thoughts were drowning out most of the noises anyways.

"really? i had no idea."

"so, your clearly nervous about something." she said smiling, she looked concerned.

"spill it, caitlyn." she said.

woah. shes so hot when she uses my real name. she never calls me caitlyn. the closest to caitlyn i can get from her is cait.

"um i-"
she comes and sits on the bed with me. should i tell her? no. its too early. we just met a few days ago, plus we're just friends - well flirty friends that is.

"im just super nervous to talk to the councilmen." i lie.

"huh, really? i thought you wouldn't be nervous because you like know all of them and shit but whatever."

im not nervous at all. shes right. she held onto my hand.

"but cait, if you ever need anything, or someone to talk to, im here for you."

im glad she cares about me as much as i care for her. shes such a softy for me. i love it.

"thanks vi. we have some time to kill before the meeting. what do you wanna do?"

"could we just sleep? im exhausted."

i got flustered AGAIN. shes definitely noticing now.

"yeah, if you want to take a nap."

"could you stay with me tho?"

god damn shes bold. of course i wanted to stay with her.

"of course vi."

vi sniggled up into my arms. shes such a softy. am i really in love with her? i never thought that she would actually be this cute. just kinda thought she was always dont care about anything do whatcha want kinda gal. tough people need a break from being tough sometimes.

i put my arms around her. she drifts right to sleep. i pet her hair. shes so beautiful when she sleeps. am k really in love with her? i observe her tattoos on her face and that scar in her eyebrow. her face is so pretty.
i soon drift off to sleep. im in love.