Feeling.

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Ya know, I never given much thought to how my life would be when I was a kid. I never thought my life would turn me from a five year old who sings and dances, to a 15 year old who has self harm scars from her shoulders down to her wrists, and self harm scars from her rib cage down to her knees.

I never thought I would ever have bulimia, and purge myself to be skinny.

I never thought I would be awake at 3:00am screaming and crying because I hate who I see in my mirror so badly.

I never thought I would be the kind of shy girl with depression,anxiety,social anxiety, panic disorder, bipolar disorder.