What happens at night stays between us;)

Please Elle, don't leave me!

IMPORTANT!: This chapter is going to be a bit emotional so please comment on your thoughts.

I was in a depressed mood and started writing a father-daughter scene.

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I woke up with a pounding head and No, this is not a hangover... It felt wayyy worse if thats possible.

I slowly opened my eyes and blinked a few times to clear my blurry vision. I looked around and I was laying on the living room floor alone, I slowly attempted to sit up but my throbbing head wouldn't let me.  I whimpered from the pain and closed my eyes again.

"Does your head hurt?" I heard a voice I know to be evil say

"no" I choked out lying as I opened my eyes and looked at my father.

"DON'T LIE TO ME BITCH! I DIDN'T RAISE YOU THIS WAY!" He screamed pushing a chair over

"you never raised me at all!" I said through grated teeth, putting as much venom in my voice as I could.

"YOU ROTTEN BRAT!" He screamed and kicked my side so hard, I think I heard a crack. I cried out in pain and the tears started to fall.

"Why do you hate me so much?! I DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW BAD OF A CHILD I MUST BE FOR YOU TO PUNISH ME LIKE THIS! I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHY I'M EVEN ALIVE! WHY DIDN'T YOU JUST KILL ME?! WHY DIDN'T YOU?!" I cried tears falling as I got the words out, I was fed up. I just realized my hands were in fists, my nails digging through my palm causing it to bleed.

Theres a point in your life when you've bottled up so many things inside you and you have no one more space for one more thing to fit so you just explode... and I've exploded! I can't take it anymore!

He didn't answer, he just stood there staring at me and downed the last drops of alcohol he had in his cup before talking "Because your not worth the jail time" He says shrugging "Yeah I can go to jail for harming you but who's going to tell on me? Obviously not you and i'll kill the Anderson boy if he tries to tell" He said laughing and I flinched at his words... I should have never involved Matt.

"YOU SHOULD HAVE JUST KILLED ME THE DAY YOU GOT ME! I WOULD HAVE THANKED YOU IF I KNEW THIS IS HOW I'D BE LIVING EVERYDAY OF MYSELF FOR THE PAST 4YEARS!" I screamedd crying harder, I would have gladly slipped into the darkness of death is he provided it to me, I would have gone staight to where my mother was, oh how I miss her. I miss her smell, Her cooking, her hugs, her laughs, her everything... I should have taken her place, why'd she leave me, why?!

I don't know what to believe, god? is there even a god? if there is, why would he make me suffer this bad?! I CAN'T TAKE THIS PAIN! GOD HELP ME!

My father just watched me with amused eyes. "Why don't you do it yourself huh?! Relieve me of a worthless child. Kill yourself! YOUR USELESS ANYWAY! NO ONE LOVES YOU! YOU'LL NEVER AMOUNT TO ANYTHING! GO JUMP OFF A CLIFF! YOUR NOT NEEDED ON THIS EARTH! JUST LIKE YOUR MOTHER!" He said getting down to my level to scream in my face and ending up spitting on me.

My heart broke. I'm worthless, kill yourself... I'm useless, pathetic, no one loves me, I'll never amount to anything... I'm not needed on earth...

The words hit me like a bullet shot right through my heart and the tears fell harder, I bit my lip trying to not cry out and I started to taste blood.

He got up and walked away and I let out a few sobs as I kept thinking of those words, my heart felt so heavy... Yet so empty, like I have a big whole in it and I felt like I was going to explode from sadness any second.