sail

chapter 2

Mi hi:

"they were so tiresome, but I had fun, my band mates, they were fun to be with and training was hard, we were said to practice for hours together" matt started talking about his training days and answered all the questions Aaron asked, I sitting in the back seat just listened to them silently, while popping up some questions I had doubt in, but this was not the me who used to exist 5 years ago, I then  feared the stage, I feel like I have been sucked out of all my confidence when I was asked to step on the stage, today I feel nothing, a smile formed on my face as I realized I have changed, I have become more confident

5 years ago: "Mihi. Mihi.. " there she was Yoona Wills, calling out her best friend Mihi McDonough (me) as she was waiting outside her house, after hearing that call opened her window and popping my head out I shouted  back "yah , why don't you come inside and wait rather than shouting from there"

"what ??"

"come in and wait stupid" with that I went back to I dresser and started combining my hair, she finally knotted her hair into a messy bun, and pulling over a cream colored coat over my grey knee length dress I ran out of my room for downstairs, there was someone else I should call, thinking I took my steps backward to other room and without knocking and spoke

"Tae.. yoona is here, we will be late" i shouted to the male figure who was folding some charts into a chart holder, he knew that yoona is here, I also know that he knows, but still I never want to leave a chance to pull my brothers leg over yoona, it was fun to watch when my bold brother becomes mute when it comes to my best friend.

"yah what took you so long ??" yoona shouted to her best friend, upon noticing someone who was getting down behind her she spoke again

"oh hello Tae"  

"hai yoona "he replied, with a smile, yoona doesn't know his feelings for her, and I decided to keep calm in this matter, even though I want them to be together and exited for that day, I also respect both the individuals, they both mean so much to me, so I am waiting for the day when my brother gathers up courage and asks her out.

"shall we go then ??" tae asked, we both nodded, just when they were about to leave when mom spoke from the kitchen

"not without having anything.. come here and have this juice, all three of you" and we following her orders went into the kitchen, there on the counter was three glasses of juice already kept ready for them

"hello aunt Mary.." yoona greeted her with a smile

"how are you yoona ??" she asked her

"I'm good aunt"

"so got all papers ready children ??" she asked them as they were drinking, me and Tae nodded, our mom can be strict sometimes but she is caring too, the most feared teacher of MSA, Mrs. Mary McDonough.

"you all can come along with us, we will be heading to school in some time anyway" dad said as  entered the kitchen, noticing presence of yoona, he spoke

"oh yoona.. you are here too, how have you been" before yoona could reply, i replied him saying

"dad, we will go by ourselves..please" later followed by yoona

"I am fine uncle" he just replied with a smile, there he is the coolest principal any school can get, Mr. William McDonough, and more cool father any children can wish for, it was like he can read their minds, me and tae always wonder how he can understand even without speaking up, and they both got whatever they want, he even accepted when his oppa wanted to have a year break in studies before pursuing again, oh you might be wondering why tae  has a year break ?? And why is he in same year as me ?? well likes to be independent and is more of a rebel child, not in a bad way, but he wanted to get everything he wanted with his hard work, not through his parent's earnings, so he interned with our journalist aunt roaming around the country for news along with her working with her team. He saved up enough money so that he could pay for his school as well as his pocket.

"shall we go then ??" it was tae  who spoke up and as the two girls agreed they left the house,

"the school will commence from Monday, yeah there is a welcome party for freshers this Saturday night, be sure to attend, it will be fun, you can visit your departments if you want to" the office assistant told as we submitted the paper work, nodding to him, we left the room, all of us were exited, we do want to see what our practice place or class looks like, so we parted our ways to our respective departments and after walking around few blocks, I found my practice hall, it was a big hall with some chairs at one corner and mirrors to all walls, I sat myself at the center and  remembered how opposed I am to the thought of auditioning it just a few days back and today I was here, at MSA, I finally overcame the tension that night before the auditions of MSA, and my thoughts trailed back to then

I was practicing in our basement for a while now, tomorrow is the big day, day of the auditions, all these years no outsiders actually know me as a dancer, the dance I do is always in the dark, closed rooms mostly when there are no other humans than mom, dad, tae ,yoona or my teacher. I dance as I find peace in it, but dad says I have to do it in light, he says I can do it, he has that confidence in me what I myself lacked, deciding to take a break I sat down

"ready for tomorrow mihi ??" dad asked as I sat

"I don't know dad. For some reason, I have a fear that I can't be doing it tomorrow" he was silent for a second and then he spoke

"tell me why did you start dancing? And why did you continue till today?"

"why  ? I used to like it when your or mom's students used to come here and practice with her guiding them, and started enjoying that, and when they teach me parts of their moves, those moments were of great joy, and later you joined me in a class when I was 10, slowly it formed a bond with me, like it is a part of me" I replied him, it is true that I don't know when I formed such a passion in it.

"so it is like your dream now ?" I nodded to his question

"close your eyes mihi" I did as I was said to, I hear him speak again "what do you see ? I bet you see yourself dancing ?" I am dancing in a room with dim light "a room with dim light right ?" he got me right I thought, "now imagine yourself with a beam of light focused just on you while you dance, or when you dance for, you are dancing for some live music, not the recorder tapes, people watch you in amusement, with their focus concentrated on you , will that not be great dear ?? " after a second of pause he spoke again " I am sure dear, like we all love you to see dance, others will all love you to see you too, you are talented mihi ,  being in dark  isn't right for you, it is time for you to be out in the light" he has a point ,

"I would like to see you perform well dear, see you in light, this is a part of you which is not to be hidden, you must be known for it, all the best for tomorrow mihi " handing me some water he left. He is correct, I have to be confident, dance is a part of me and I can't be hiding from myself with fear of embarrassment, I have to face it  like my other fears, I think it is high time I should start to face my fears one by one.

breaking me from my past thoughts, my phone rang and it was tae who is calling