I go outside and take a deep breath in, staring up at the sky I watch as a bird flies past. The sun is out, the birds are singing, flowers blooming, trees green and not a cloud in sight. The weather really needs an update on the day because its being really insensitive.
If I said that to Arjun, he would call me irrational. Funny. His irrationality is what brought us to this position yet, if he were here with me, he would still look down at me and say that I'm the irrational one.
I start following the path whilst singing, 'just the two of us, we can make it if we try...' in my head.
I reach the park and go to my favourite bench, its perfect in every way. It has the best angle to watch the sunset, the breeze always hits just right here no matter what and it stands beneath a beautiful tree filled with pink flowers, offering the best shade from the sun. my sinuses will murder me for this, but that doesn't matter, I need familiarity right now.
I watch a couple walk past laughing and giving each other small, sweet kisses and there it is another reminder, that my love has come and gone. I wish I could hate him for leaving like he did, but I cannot hate him. Instead, I wish I could go to him and pull him into my arms, but I cannot. its too late. All I can do is remember him, his eyes, smile, laugh, kisses. His everything.
Arjun loved saying that remembering was my worst habit. I let out a sad laugh, thinking about him, because if he were with me now, he would tell me about how I never listen. But now he cannot stop me I will remember everything; I will remember the two words that started it all.
But most importantly I will remember him.
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Romance"I'm gay" were not the words I was expecting to change my life, but life has a lot of surprises. I just wish that some of them weren't so cruel. (I am not the artist who made the cover) Updates once a week
