The Painful Love

Prologue

"Max tama na, ayoko na pagod na pagod na ako."

"Babe you can rest, Don't pressure yourself to much."

Estella said to me, while we are on the beach.

"I want to stop, from us. I want to stop. What we have."

I said while i'm not having a eye contact with her.

"Babe, what do you mean?"

Estella laugh

"Ayaw ko na. Pagod na pagod na ako"

"No, babe wag naman ganto. I can't lose you"

"Max masasaktan ka lang, mapapagod ka lang. mahal kita pero."

"Pero ano? Pero you want to back to past at iwan ako? Cali I'm here, alam kong masakit. pero sana naman ako naman, sana kahit ngayon naman ako naman mahalin mo. sana naman ako piliin mo' I'm willing sacrifice all I have my career, my life. ari arian ko. willing ako I sacrifice lahat ng yun para sayo. wag ka lang mawala, wag mo lang ako iwan. kasi hindi ko kaya, hindi ko kakayanin, hindi ko kakayanin na mawala ka sa akin. Because hindi ko na kakayanin kung pati ikaw mawawala sa akin. mahal na mahal kita cali. I know that you want your life back then. But it's all from past right now cali, you have me right now. You can't just leave. I can't live without the person who i consider my life. I can't lose you cali."

I know that even tho hindi niya sabihin alam kong nasasaktan siya sa bawat sinasabi niya

"Estella, I'm so sorry. pero I have my decision now. duun ko ipagpapatuloy yung buhay ko ng walang camera ng tahimik. There I don't need to pretend anymore, I don't need to pretend my attitude. my smile. also duun anytime pwede ako umiyak hindi katulad sa industry natin na kailangan sa sobrang dilim pa bago ako umiyak bago ko ilabas yung nararamdaman ko max. You know how much i sacrifice all i have from all of this. I also don't need to have a bodyguard around me just to protect me from paparazzi. I can eat to my favorite restaurant na hindi ako pinipicturan hindi na ako ulit masasakal max, I don't need to do that anymore kasi look oh I have my freedom na ulit."