What The Heart Wants (Discontinued)

Recovery

Justin POV

It was Monday morning already, School was the first thing that came to my mind because I know I will have to see her. I will never be able to look at her the same after what I've done or even yet talk to her for this project. But I know eventually I'm going have to. I felt like a weight has been lifted off my shoulders after that talk I had with my mother. She is the only woman that understands me for the most part, but yesterday I've done a lot of thinking and I know what I have to do today at school. I have to let Carly go. She's not good for me. I can't take it no more, I already have a lot to worry about and she doesn't make me happy. I've been with her for 2 and a half years of my life. I don't care if I'm throwing all of that away, I need to live. I've been cheating on her majority of our relationship. I'm just sick and tired of lying to people and trying to make other people happy. I have to do what's best for me. I could care less about this image thing, my grades come first and myself. And I have to work on myself definitely, its all about growing up and becoming the man I've always wanted to be. Im still going to be the asshole and football jock everyone knows at school but nobody will ever know the real Justin. The real Justin the person I known years ago is still inside me but its going to take a strong person to bring him out, and its going to take a lot.

I got up out of my bed and went to the bathroom to do my daily hygiene routines. I took a quick shower,brushed my teeth, and styled my hair into its usual quiff. I went to my closet and pulled out a pair of black skinny jeans, black supras, and a black long shirt. Just keepin' it plain and simple today. I started putting my clothes on and I looked out the window and saw her walking with Mya. I couldn't help but stare, she looked completely out of it while Mya was talking to her. I wonder what's the matter with her, I hope she's not upset about what happened. I stop staring and shook the thought out of my head and finished getting dressed. After I was done getting dressed, I went downstairs and saw my mother in the kitchen sitting down reading her magazine. She looked at peace. God knows how much I love my mother. She is officially the only woman in my life who I want to make happy. Im all she has since everything that happened in the past, I'm going to do whatever I can to see a smile on her beautiful face.

"Hey mother." I smiled at her and gave her a hug.

"Hey JuJu, you seem very happy this morning." Actually to be honest I wasn't really in a bad mood. But I was very happy to see my mother.

"I'm just happy to see you mommy. That's all. I'm blessed for having such a wonderful mother like you." She grinned at me and put her magazine down.

"I'm very blessed to have a wonderful son like you." I'm not wonderful I'm an asshole, a fuck up, I'm far away from wonderful.

"I'm not wonderful. But I'm going to try to be the best I can for you because you deserve it." I meant every word that I said to her.

"How sweet Justin .You don't have to change for me, I want you to change for yourself." I kissed her cheek and grabbed an apple from the table.

"Im trying. But I have to go mom." She waved goodbye at me and made my way out to my car, my phone started to ring and I looked down and saw Carly calling me. I swiped the phone to answer it.

"Hello?"

"Justin where the hell you've been??!!! Come and get me now before i make you look bad at school."

"Carly don't start your shit. You're always bitching. And we need to talk on the way to school."