The tickle down the right side of my neck distracts me from keeping up with the steady pace of Jeremy's lips. He started out kissing me left ear and then moved on to my right. Now Jeremy's focus has returned to my mouth, and I'm glad for it. I love the way his soft lips feel against mine even though him kissing my neck is definitely my next favorite thing. I could lie on this couch with him forever as long as he keeps making me feel good.
Jeremy and I have been making our for what seems like hours, but I'm not worried about the time. My phone's gone off twice since he got here, and I couldn't care less. I know it's rah ready to grill me about seeing Jeremy kiss me on Friday Night at the race, but I have nothing say to him about what we do. I just hope we don't stop anytime soon. The second time around Jeremy and me just might be what we both need.
"I'll give you a thousand dollars for that thought" Jeremy says pulling away from my lips and promptly kissing me on my nose.
We both need to come up for air, but not for too long I hope. It's been a while since I had a make-out session without having to look over my shoulder for a crazy ex-girlfriend or baby-mama on attack mode.
"And you probably would, too," I say kissing Jeremy on his neck. By the way he's shaking, I can tell he likes it. I keep kissing, softly bitting his flesh as I smile at every involuntary jump he makes.
"Come on jayd. I'm serious,"
Jeremy says, kissing me on my right cheek and then again on my ear. If he doesn't stop, we're going to get in some serious trouble I know I'm not ready for. I'll be seventeen in couple weeks, and all my friends are waiting on me to lose my virginity because I'm the last one in our crew and probably the whole damn school. But I'm not going out like that not yet. Jeremy continues, "from now on we need to have a full disclosure no secrets. That's the only way this can work."
"Full disclosure? I'm not sure I can do that,"
I can say, easing my way out from under him and sitting up straight on the small couch that doubles as my weekend bed at my mother's apartment. The couch was already a mess before Jeremy got here, and now it looks like a tornado hit it. The pillows are thrown across the living room floor, with my sheets and blankets across the coffee table. If my mom walked in right now she'd be upset by the mess in her apartment than the boy making out with her daughter.
"Why not?" Jeremy asks in that innocent way of his way that makes my heart melt. He's so adorable when he's on a mission for information. "Look jayd, I'm serious about having a committed relationship with you, and means we have to be completely honest with eachother, even if it means having to hear something we might not want to. So what's on your mind?"
I look into Jeremy's blue eyes and see his sincerity. But I still don't feel comfortable telling him everything about how I, mama, and my mom get down. "Because, Jeremy, there are some things I can never tell you."
