I love it when people say my first and last name whitout a fucking reason I also love how someone asked me today "are you lookin for a boyfriend you look lonely?" and pointed at his friend and I love how many friends I have in my class wich are non existence the onely friends I have are from other countries or other classes
I wouldn't be surprised if I didn't make it to 2023 especially when people talk shit about me and say "fuck Jay's a pice of shit" and they know that I can hear them
it's just lovely to know that they can't shut up about me 😍
The one thing keeping me still going I'm Hertta my brothers dog nothing else if she dies then so do I shes my happiness and I can't live without her
This might sound a little selfish but I don't care if I hurt people by just ending my life they'll just know the fucking pain I'm in everyday fucking day!
I lost 5 of my fucking friends like a month ago and I'm all alone in class and everywhere I go people just ask "is L nice" (I will call my big brother L since his first name starts whit an L) why can't people ask "are you okay?" but not all the time like in 6th grade because it get annoying if you ask the same question 10 times a day
I'm really tired of even getting out of bed every time I have to get out of bed I ask myself "can I just go back to sleep and never wake up?" then it would be a good morning not just another shitty day in hell
I have no motivation or energy to do anything school drains it all away and just makes me feel like shit
End of this chapter bye
