i'm tired. | fw x reader

part five.

finn's pov.

i woke up first out of everyone. somehow through the night i must've scooped up y/n because her forehead was across my chest. without even realising, i started playing with her hair, just watching her. she was absolutely beautiful. i have had crushes before. on girls. on boys. but nothing seemed to compare to the feeling i felt now. i was thinking about last night, before i realised the lump in the blanket. i groaned. why had i totally forgotten that i get morning wood? it was just a normal thing for me, but what the fuck would i say if y/n woke up and realised? i decided to go to the bathroom, because usually once i've peed, i'm good.

once i got back to the attic, i noticed molly was awake. 'oh good morning finn!' she whispered and patted the bed next to her. i didn't really know molly that well, but she seemed really fun and kind. 'so when are you going to ask her out?' she asked. 'what?' i said. 'oh come on. it's so obvious you like y/n. and she definitely likes you back.' she said. i just looked at her. 'is it really that obvious.' 'no. your an actor so obviously your good at acting. but i was awake most of the night. i saw you kiss her. i saw you play with her hair. i saw you two spooning. i even saw the bulge in your pants. that last bit was accidentally but it was hard not to notice as you walked right past me' she said, sipping on a bottle of water. i blushed. 'please don't tell her. even if she does like me back i can't do anything about it. i have a contract saying i'm not allowed to be in a relationship until i'm eighteen.' i sighed. when i was 12, i signed that form thinking, 'yeah girls are icky.' not realising a year later all my hormones would come flooding in. i'm a teenage boy. my feelings are nothing weird, but it's annoying knowing i can never do anything about it. 'then have a secret relationship if you must.' she said, pushing me onto her bed.

i decided to go on my phone for a while, waiting for y/n to wake up. zara had woken up at that moment and got up to go to the bathroom, i'm presuming. slowly everyone else started waking up and making small talk. i was bored out of my mind without y/n, so i decided to talk to molly again. we made small talk about why i came to australia, and why i don't really want to go back to canada. i'm just sick of the cold weather. and plus, some creepy fans have found my address and started sending things to me. but i do get homesick every now and then. i have friends back in canada, and sometimes my american friends would travel up to see me of vice versa. but i don't really know anyone australian except everyone i've met since i moved. there was dacre, but even though we are friends i'd not quite the same. he's much older than me and we don't have that much in common.

i was talking to molly for about 30 minutes, when y/n woke up finally. i realised once i heard moaning and groaning and the quiet 'fuck' every once in a while. 'hey. i got you some Panadol and a bottle of water. i know hangovers are shitty.' i said, sitting next to her and handing her the water and tablets in my hand. she was fully underneath the white doona cover, so she stuck her hand out and tried to find the things i got her. 'thank you finn.' she groaned.

she eventually sat up, her eyes closed and face pale. she looked terrible, but at the same time, she an element of beauty. almost like an aesthetic someone would use in a photoshoot. her hair was a mess, but somehow she made it look like it was a mess on purpose. her makeup was smudged, but in a way that showed character. it was amazing.

'FINN?! hello? are you listening?' i heard as i snapped out of my thoughts. i looked at y/n and she looked kind of confused.

'yeah sorry i was zoning out. it happens sometimes.' i say, half chuckling. she smiled at me.

'it's okay. i do the same thing.' she said with a slight smile. 'i was just asking you what the time was?' i checked my phone. 'it says 10:37am.' 'that was awfully specific.' she giggled. it made me smile.

everyone was awake by that stage, so i went downstairs to the bathroom to change out of my pyjamas, or at least what i was wearing as my pyjamas. obviously i cant sleep in just boxers at a party full of teenage girls. i made sure i took my time, as some of the girls were changing as well, and i didn't want to walk in on them getting changed.

we went downstairs and got breakfast. zara and farah decided they wanted to make pancakes for everyone so while they were baking, everyone was mingling around the house. zara's parents weren't home, and neither was her brother or grandma. so it was just us and her older sister amelia.

i didn't really know amelia too well. she was in the class above us and was super loud and obnoxious. she sees herself as the funny girl i think but she's kind of rude. when i was trying to find out where my class was one day, she showed me and started ranting about how my year level was such babies and super 'smol'. then she went on about how i was way too mature and i should hang out with her friends. last and only time i've ever talked to her.

amelia was watching tv. i wasn't too sure what she was watching but i think it was a police show. some of the girls were watching it with her, and some of the others were sitting at the table waiting for breakfast. y/n, harley and i were all on the back deck playing with zara's golden retriever, roxy. she reminded me of my old dog, rosie. she was super happy and absolutely loved getting pet.

after 20 or so minutes, the girls had finished breakfast. half had choc chips, half didn't. they were actually amazing. they were super fluffy and i think everyone thought so too because no one was talking, just the sound of chewing was heard. until zara decided to pipe up.

'so guys, i was thinking after this we could pack up the attic, bring your gear downstairs and then go walk to the school near mine for a bit? near the football field is this place with a bunch of trees and there's a massive treehouse made by the year twelves like 30 years ago. it's so cool.' everyone seemed to like the idea, so we quickly finished eating and tidied up. then, we made our way to the school near zara's house. it wasn't our school, but it was one pretty close.

the school was massive. it was extremely modern and must of cost millions and millions of dollars to make. all of the classrooms were in one big building, kind of like the schools i went to in canada. except there were seperate buildings for the gymnasium, the performing arts centre, the cafeteria and the library. they also had an olympic sized swimming pool. both y/n and i were amazed, but the others didn't really seem to care, or notice to much.

we got to the football field, which was fenced off. we all climbed over the fence. which wasn't too high but y/n wasn't too sure, since she was still kind of dizzy from the hangover. belle decided she wasn't going to go, since we were 'trespassing' and she doesn't want to get arrested. so she stayed with y/n while everyone went to the treehouse. i offered to stay with y/n, but she told me that she doesn't need to be coddled, and that her and belle will be just fine together.

we made our way up the bleachers and over another fence to get to the forest like place zara was telling us about. the whole time here she was trying to get my attention. it didn't work. i am soo sick of her already.

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sorry this chapter is
kinda short, i have been
really busy lately and
have had some family
issues. hopefully
i won't take too long
updating xx