stronger than the sea | z.m

I Won't Mind

I'm ashamed in myself for letting like 2 months pass by before updating again. I got over Zayn's departure 3 days after so I have no excuse. I still support him and love him I accepted that he left the band quickly it's just my personality. If you don't support him now whatever but don't leave nasty comments because I won't stand by it. I'm grateful to all of you lovely people who continue to read despite how bad I am at updating so thanks for that. The picture is what I imagined Sofia's outfit looks like just so you can see. Enjoy, hopefully 💃 (last time I include this I know it's annoying but I changed twitter handle so I'm @/highwaistedzjm now) - Mari x

As I sat here sipping on some Yorkshire tea, I couldn't believe how lucky I was. This beautiful girl barely knows me and immediately shot down the whole destined lovers bit in the prophecy, but she's unknowingly already warmed up to me.

I've taken girls out on dates before and they'll stick to meals like salad sometimes barely chowing down half the platter not because they were full but in hopes of impressing me.

While some guys dig that, I just feel pity towards them. You shouldn't have to pretend to be a completely different person to make a good first impression.

Sofia and I ordered the Spaghetti Bolognese for two per my request which definitely was not well thought out on my part. I can see myself raiding the fridge once this date is over.

Not only did Sofia devour most of the platter, she audibly slurped the strands of spaghetti giving up completely on twisting them around her fork, her face is messier than my 7-month-old goddaughter Brooklyn's when she eats on her own, and we haven't even had our Lady and the Tramp moment for God's sake.

"I can't tell if this is the real Sofia or if you're just trying to scare me away. Either way," I tap her cute button nose "you're a cutie."

She gives me a look of pure disgust and rolls her eyes. "Just finish your meal will you poop eyes." She ends with a sarcastic, fake smile and slurps yet another strand of spaghetti.

"I've heard amber, Bambi, honey, topaz, and hazel but not poop eyes before. You're quite the special snowflake you know that Wayland."

She immediately dropped her fork, setting her chin on her palm, leaning forward in her seat.

"So I've been told. I didn't know you knew about snow though, does it snow here?" Her eyes sparkled with excitement, the unfamiliar sight making my heart pump faster as it took my breath away.

This time it was my turn to roll my eyes. "We're not cavemen you know? It snows here sometimes, but if you go up north to the Ice Castle, you'll see it year round."

She whines and falls back in her seat with so much force it nearly topples over.

"You're so lucky! Growing up in southern Texas where it's practically a desert means I've only seen snow once and there wasn't even a full inch of it! Ugh it's so gay."

At that my playful mood died down and an awkward, tense silence took over.

"What is gay a synonym for in your mind?" I gritted my teeth, jaw clenched as I waited for her response.

"Uh I meant to say lame I just got so used to my friends saying gay instead that it rubbed off on me. Did that bother you?" She looked nervous for a split second then morphed back into her nonchalant self.

"Not in the slightest." I angrily dropped my fork on the platter and got up.

"I need to use the toilet." I mumbled and headed towards the restrooms before Sofia had a chance to explain any further. The same toilet where we met is now the one I resorted to to escape her presence. Life loves a bit of irony.

✩Sofia's POV✩

Was it something I said? Wait, of course it was something I said. Sofia you idiot, he brought up the use of the word gay as an insult.

If he's sensitive about it that means he's close to someone who's homosexual or ... it could be himself.

No, that can't be right. The prophecy says I'm his soulmate and last time I checked I'm a female. Bisexual maybe?

I have to ask someone else what they think before I drive myself crazy. Georgia! I grab my purse and fish out my phone. I wait patiently for the home page to pop up as the screen slowly illuminates. I go to my recent contacts and press text under 'GiGiBear🍑'.

Are you there?? I have a quick question !

Claro que si como te puedo ayudar mija?

Georgia stfu before I go over there and slap the Spanish out of you. I'm serious.

Rawr, feisty🐯 What do you want kid?

If I accidentally say "that's so gay" as an insult and someone gets offended does that mean they're gay?

Just letting you know I took a screenshot of this. Never thought I'd hear such dumb thoughts from you.

What how is what I said dumb? And delete it 😣

Anyone can support gay rights. People that take religion very seriously bash gays horribly so the supporters try their best to stand up for them. Zayn might just be close to someone that's gay or it might bring back bad memories. And no.

When did you get so smart?? And gtg he's coming back now talk to ya later ! 💃

I quickly shoved my phone back in my purse as I saw Zayn coming back. I heard it go off but didn't make a move to see Georgia's reply. Zayn was getting closer and I grew anxious as to what I should say. I think apologizing is my best shot.

"I'm sorry." We both spoke at the same time.

I glared at Zayn when he made a move to speak again, so he slowly sat back in his seat and waited for me to say something.

"You shouldn't apologize when I'm the one who set you off. Now tell me why my comment bothered you."

He wrung his tan, calloused fingers and looked down as he spoke quietly.

"I've loved art for as long as I can remember. I was blessed with an amazing family who don't believe in categorizing hobbies and interests with gender, but the kids at school weren't the same.

I went through 2 whole years of getting teased for who I was just because art was seen as girly. I got called a faggot and other slurs and as a proud Muslim whose religion says homosexuality is wrong, this hit me hard.

I never left behind my hobby and I eventually stood up to them, but I'm still sensitive about the topic so just try to be a bit more careful of what you say please. I can understand what they go through and hate to hear such words be thrown around carelessly."

Not once did he raise his voice no matter how intense the fire in his eyes got. I respect him for that because yelling wouldn't get us anywhere.

"I'm glad you were able to stay true to yourself even when the going got tough. You're a good man Malik. You should put those skills to the test and paint something for me." I was thankful for how open Zayn was, but I didn't want to make it awkward of depressing after hearing that.

"Of course. I'll draw you like one of my French girls."

As I playfully slapped his hand-and smirk-away, I realized he wasn't as bad as I thought. I won't mind if the prophecy is true, I can't imagine having anyone better for a soulmate.