Taste of Catastrophe (On-Going)

PROLOGUE

Warning: This chapter contains attempt suicide. Please read at your own risk.

Song played: Give me faith by Elevation Worship

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HIS POV

From here at the hospital's rooftop, I remember how I used to admire at how the clouds blend beautifully in the sky as the sun descends, how the breeze brought comfort and how the sound of the busy roads somehow makes me feel alive.

I stepped up on the cemented railings, looked down and smiled bitterly. The world is such a beautiful place for a broken man like me. Probably because, life doesn't give everyone the luxury to live the life they want, to be with the people they love. And this scenery in front of me, made me think that maybe... maybe this is the last beautiful thing I wanna see.

People called this an escape from living in a chaotic and painful reality, but for me, it feels like my hope. A hope to finally be free, to let my soul rest and be at peace... for eternity.

I'm done. I'm so tired. I just want to end everything in an instant before it ends me. There's nothing left to fight for anyway. I ran out of reasons to live.

There's no point of living anymore.

I lost it all. And that... that was all I have.

I moved closer to edge of the only platform that my life was depending on.

But I guess this is it. Just a single step and... it will be the end of everything.

I closed my eyes at the same time I felt tears running down my face, and was about to take one more step, when suddenly, my phone rang. It was a call.

Then a music played that filled the place.

It was the song that my sister set as my ringtone. The song she always keep on reminding me again and again.

I need You

To soften my heart, and break me apart

I need You

To open my eyes,

to see that You're shaping my life

All I am, I surrender

Memories started to flash back behind my mind. I felt it again... the pain, and the longing.

I just found myself breaking down, remembering my sister's words before she left.

"Remember to live your purpose, Koko. That's all you have."

I could almost hear her.

Give me faith, to trust what You say

That You're good, and Your love is great

I'm broken inside

I give You my life

Faith. It is something I already lost. Or maybe... something I never had.

I broke down even more as the song continues. I took a step back before falling down to the ground. I knelt and placed my forehead on the floor as tears fall endlessly from my eyes.

"What am I doing?", I whispered as I fisted my knuckles with so much anger, pain and regret.

She would never want to see me like this. She always wanted me to live my purpose. She never wanted my life to be as wasted, and as miserable as I am now. And that song... that call... that wasn't an accident. It saved me. I want to believe that it saved me. And maybe, just maybe, maybe it was the sign I needed.

So I wiped my face and slowly forced myself to stand up and walked towards where my phone is.

I opened it and saw a missed call, followed by a message.

'Good evening, Dr. Allego. A new patient is on her way to operating room.'

A huge accident happened. And this patient is already going to be wheeled to the operating room, to wait for me.

I don't know why, but I suddenly felt the urge to help her. Not because it is my job as a doctor, but because of something else.

I just found myself preparing to leave, grabbing my white coat in a hurry, like I wasn't about to end my own life a few minutes ago.

And as I was on my way to the operating room, I can't stop thinking about that call, the reason why I'm still here... alive.

Never did I expect that an unexpected patient... would be the start of my new beginning.

Kathraine Addison.

I owe you for saving my life.

Now wait for me, and let me do the same.

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