The book of Love

Him

Him, the comfort and the pain,
my happiest memories yet he's  my deepest trauma,
His sweetest words that the devil hides behind,
His empty promises that holds this mind of mine,
His touch that leaves my body frozen,
Why bother run if you know it'll soon be over,
His dark eyes that you wish held a soul,
His lingering lips that couldn't seem to tell the truth,
His body build that towers over mine,
Maybe that's why I felt weak all the time,
His eyes did hold a soul,
The fucker captured mine,
His lips that lingered,
Setting my skin a blaze,
With every lie he told,
it felt as if the gates of hell had swallowed me whole,
I am not weak bcuz he is strong,
I am weak bcuz my feelings are involved,
So with every lie,
I break a little more,
At this point I'm not worth fighting for,
I tried to explain I'm falling apart,
Yet he's continued to break my heart,
He's been my heaven while giving me hell,
Some days it hurts like I'm dealing with the devil himself,
There's no longer a trace of me in my body,
Simply a shell,
A mockery of my former self,
Once a warrior who refused to fall,
Now I'm a peasant at the mercy of all,
But I know he'll continue to hurt me,
I'll no longer plea,
I refuse to cry out,
I'll take my beating,
Till this heart dries out,
I'll lay on the floor watch time pass by,
Wondering why not just pass me to another guy,
Someone that wants more than just sex,
Or another mind to torment,
Someone who'll love me,
And promise me care,
Someone who'll hold me when I want to give up,
Someone who's mine all the time,
Someone who I won't fear is gonna leave me at the drop of a dime,
Or whenmy body that's no longer mine,
Refuses to do the things that he like.