An Escape [KTH X JJK ff]

•Insecurities-KTH•

I thought we'd be forever
But I knew we won't
And that goes on to puzzle me even more
Why did we put in so much then
When forever wasn't in our sight till the end
So much love and so much care
Lingering hands Longing for a pair
A heart full and a mind less
What were we doing in this mess
I miss you
Though you sit there
And I look at you
And feel the stare
What are we doing on this staircase
"Hey love" I thought I'd say
But were we lovers I didn't know yet
So to the kiss that I almost sent
Virtually through the phone to show I care
And to the words that weren't said for labels  we couldn't shed
Hey love I say
We had fun while we were there
Let me go now
For I'd always be free
While you'd be bound to your mindset's tree
Don't get me wrong
I've loved you
But I was made to be free
And the free ones among.
Let's shed this love now
My little bae
This went too long
I thought I couldn't stay
Thanks for holding my hand
And for That 'once upon a time' that we shared
I felt safe
I felt secure
Feelings that aren't meant
For the free souls and wandering nomads
And hey love
I'll say
When I look at water lilies blooming in the bay
But I'd know you aren't there
And I'd shed some sorrow when I stand there
But standing is not what I can do
I am a free soul that cannot brood
Hey love I've loved you
I've got feelings that I thought I couldn't know
Hey love I've loved you
Thanks for being my little boo
Hey love
I think I'll miss you
Hey love
Can I kiss you?

I listened to this song over and over again. What had he put into it?? What?? When I had listened to it for the first time, I felt like he was trying too hard but now that I had heard it quite a few times, I could understand that he was willingly trying hard...like he was trying to show he was trying hard....to let go. He had put some feeling into the song that would make you come back to it and as much as I loved it...it made me feel bitter. He was so good. Albeit his scars, he was someone who you'd want to keep looking at...just like his song. His voice was like a drop of honey, the sound dew drops made when they fell on a flower's petal. So effortless and so smooth. His name was cool too.
He was a perfect idol.

I was jealous of him.

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"Ah! Why?"
I look up at my phone and it's 7 am already. Why is the alarm so loud and why does the bed feel like heaven just when I have to get up. I feel like crying...I almost cry.

"Kim-Taehyung-if-you-don't-come-outside- right-now-I-am-going-to-break- through-that-door-and-drag-you- outside-to-the-garden-and-smash-your- head-on-some-flower-pot-do-you- understand?"

Paa why 😭😭

I whimper and try to get out of the bed. Why does he rap when he's angry and why is it funny and why was he still scared of it??

"Aw bub. Do you think my flower pots deserve to die from being hit by his useless head? Why would you say that ?"

Okay. That hurt more. Namjoon appa shouldn't be saying this. I thought he loved me.

"KIM-TAEHYU-- Aw baby did we wake you up??"

What in the actual fuck? As I open my sleepy eyes thinking he has finally decided to love me...he swerves past me and hugs someone else..... ugh......OH N--

"Hey taehyung. Gummorning"

Aw. My. God.

"Oh yeah. Good morning Ze"