Why is this happening to me!? If Gen just stayed a few seconds longer I BET she'd be able to see how I had no choice in the kiss at all! I still don't know what to do about Peter. If he finds out he's gonna be so pissed. Maybe not. If he hears me out and let's me explain how it was all Kenny's idea and I had no part in it then maybe he'll understand! ..no. Gen didn't even try to hear me out how will I know that Peter will. If I don't tell him that guilt will just be building up inside of me even though that stupid kiss wasn't my idea.
I spent most of my day in my room overthinking that whole situation. Chris came over and I explained the whole thing to her.
"Then why don't you just tell Peter that you didn't want to kiss Kenny? Boom easy as that."Chris says.
"No! It's not as easy as that! It's was more complicated. What if he doesn't wanna hear me out or what if he doesn't believe me and breaks up with me. What if Gen breaks up with Kenny and Peter breaks up with me and Gen and Peter get back together as a revenge plot thing. Oh my god that would be so bad. Or what if-" I get cut off by Chris.
"Oh my lord LJ. Stop with the what if's. Peter's a good guy he'll understand. He's made mistakes before too and it's like Kenny means anything to you." she says.
"Yeah but he already got a bit mad when I didn't tell him that Kenny was neighbor l, imagine what he's gonna say about the kiss!"
"Well not telling him about the neighbor thing makes you seem suspicious. It probably made it seem like you were trying to hide it or something. But anyway, Peter will understand he loves you LJ. If he really loves you he'll understand and won't get too mad." Chris says.
"Yeah. Maybe you're right! I'll invite him over tomorrow and tell him. I'll try to act causal with it too so it doesn't seem like it's this big secret. And if I say it right he should believe me since there's no reason not to believe me right? Right. Okay and we've been dating for so long he knows i wouldn't just cheat on him out of nowhere with some douchebag named Kenny. I mean come on who holds a kid in their stomach for 9 dreadful months and then decides to name their kid Kenneth with a nickname of Kenny? Like just the name is unattractive. And he's not even hot so Peter would know I won't down grade like that. You're right Chris I will tell him." i rant.
"LJ, I'm always right. You should really start listening to me more i'm telling you." she says as she begins eating mnms.
"Wait- where'd you get those?" i ask. Those just appeared out of nowhere.
"Oh, while you were ranting about Kenny's weird ass name I looked through your drawers and found a package of mnms." she replies.
"And what if they're old?"
"So? Does it look like I give a shit? They still taste good." she shrugged.
Once Chris left I texted Peter.
L- heyy
P- hey babe what's up
L- wanna come over tomorrow?
P- yeah of course
P- i feel like i haven't seen you in forever i miss you
L- awww i miss you too! cant wait for tmr!
P- me too. im gonna go to bed now it's late you should sleep too. good night
L- yeah i will. night babe ily <3
Whew. That went normal. I think. Hopefully he doesn't suspect anything. Like anything that clues him into that fact that i'm inviting him over for one sole reason. I mean obviously I enjoy his company so that was another reason but I didn't have time to really miss him these past few days when I've been stressing over this huge guilt I have on my shoulders. I mean it's not that big of a guilt. I didn't initiate the kiss I didn't even kiss back. So technically I did nothing therefore I have nothing to be shamed for. But still. Ugh this is too hard I'm going to bed.
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Just You and Me
Romance-ONGOING- Peter Kavinsky and Lara Jean's journey in college (senior year as well). They face multiple obstacles along the road as they have to deal with long distance, but nothing can break the powerful couple...or can it??? (disclaimer: this story...
