Euphoria

Chapter 4

Jungkook bit his lip and gently began kissing her ear again, pulling the soft lobe between his lips and tugging on it as he slipped his hand under her shirt and kneaded her tummy. He slowly moved off her ear, placing slow intentional kisses down her neck, moving across her throat and leaving little nips.

Anna was pinching her lip between her teeth, not wanting to encourage or discourage him. She loved how safe and warm he was, how gentle and loving. His large hand was almost hot on her stomach and while she usually would've scolded him for squishing her, there was something almost comforting to it. ...and she didn't trust her voice to be stable enough to tell him off.

He had begun pressing open kisses to her collarbones and had slid her whole shirt up to the edge of her bra. He was trying to push her to make some kind of noise but she was being stubbornly silent. He glanced up at her for a second and paused. She looked almost asleep, taking deep breaths and looking calm and happy.

Except her cute little lip was being mangled in what he hoped was an attempt to be her usual stubborn ass. And he was determined to fix that.

He leant down and pressed a soft wet kiss to her stomach, dragging slowly to leave a trail of them. He heard an almost silent gasp and felt her suck in her tummy.

"Anna."

She kept her eyes down nervously. He hated when she tried to hide her "beautiful tummy", but it was almost a reflex at this point.

His fingers lifted her chin and she relaxed a little into the kiss. He pulled away slowly and looked at her. She looked away again and bit her lip. She felt like crying. Why couldn't she just have been pretty? She used to be skinnier. Then he'd found her and his mom joined him in making her eat every possible food known to man.

"Darling..did I go too far?"

She shook her head and sighed shakily.
"No, Kook. You d-didn't have to stop e-either-"

"Yes I did," he was gently rubbing her stomach again, watching her worriedly as she stared at his hand. "Even if you didn't pull back because you didn't want me there, then you're still just nervous. And there is nothing wrong with that. I can wait till the world is collapsing and still won't be mad as long as I can see you beside me."

"Cheesy.." Her eyes were welling up now, and she took one of his hands, and holding it tightly between hers pulled it against her chest. "I just wasn't expecting it..you're allowed to touch me anywhere, Kook..you know that.."

Jungkook lay down and pulled her onto his chest and held her tightly. She immediately buried her face against his neck and began taking deep breaths.

"You're not a toy or a possession for the taking and touching, Anna..you're a wonderful young woman. Believe it or not, and I'm starting to wonder not, I care about you. About how you feel. About whether or not you're completely relaxed and comfortable with me touching a certain part or area of you. Do I love your body? Hell yeah. Do I plan on pinning you down so I can hurt it and not worry about you? Fuck no. I love you, Anna. What you look like, how many zits you have, how many fucking pounds you weigh is not why I love you."

He lifted her up gently and pressed his palm over her heart. "This is why I love you. You have such a kind, gentle heart, you love so many people who treated you like shit, you defend people you don't even agree with just because you still love them. You forgive, you try to forget, you take the blame and with that? A broken heart and depression. I love you because you're an angel. Not because you have some stupid skinny body."

Anna was shaking on top of him, holding back tears and feeling worthless and undeserving. He was wrong. She wasn't nice. She didn't care. She didn't forgive people. She just blamed them and abandoned them. Broke them and tossed them aside.

Warm arms pulled her back into a hug she didn't think she'd ever deserve and she broke into tears. Feeling this loved couldn't be safe. She'd lose all of them.

It broke him to feel her sobbing like that, and wondered if he'd caused it. He pulled a blanket over her and gently rubbed circles on her back and played with her hair. It may not have helped her, but he knew she usually liked it. And she did stop crying, but not for God knows how long.

"..I g-got your shirt all wet, Kook.."

He smiled and kissed her cheek. "Do you feel better?"

She sniffled and nodded. "At least a little bit...hugs always help..and being held..and the back rubs...and just you."

He chuckled softly. "Gee, I guess I like you too. What else about "just me" do you like?"

She kissed him gently and lay against him. "You. Just you. All of just you. You have a big heart and too much love-"

"I hate everyone but you and my family."

She gave him a mock glare. "Too much love and you forgive me too much and you deserve better."

"Better than you? Doesn't exist!"

"And you smell nice."

He snorted and let out a giggle. "Ahh, the real reason you love me. I somehow smell nice. Are you just horny?"

She slapped his chest gently. "That's you. Not me. I mean...okay, maybe it's both of us. But you're more horny."

"Coming from miss-oh-my-god-that-baby-is-so-cute-lemme-just-convince-this-random-stranger-to-let-me-hold-her-baby?"

"That doesn't mean I'm horny! I just want a baby of my own!"

"I'd make a fantastic father."

He hugged her waist tightly as she kissed him gently, dragging out the kiss as long as she could. She sat up, almost on his stomach with her hands on his chest, and looked at him.

"You really would..the amount of kids who just adore you is adorable..you're so patient and gentle...a-and I hope..that when I'm a mom, I'll have y-you beside me..as the dad..?"

"I'm sure not giving any other woman my babies. Who else would be my kids mom, Anna? You would be the only good thing I ever give them."

He slid his hands over her thighs and squeezed them gently.

"...I like your hands too."

"I like yours. They'd feel great around-"

"Kook!"

"What? I was going to say, before you so rudely interrupted, great around my arm."

Anna blushed and looked away.

Jungkook smirked and tugged her shirt. "Were you being a pervert? Damn, and I'm the horny one. I mean, if you want to, I sure won't object-"

Anna whined. "Stoooppp.."

He took her wrist and tugged her down, mimicking her with a smirk. "Make meee...as I was sa-"

She pressed her mouth against his, trying to avoid her own embarrassment only to shriek and lurch back a moment later as his fingers snaked along her ribs. "No tickling!!"

"I was saying, anything from you would be more than welcome. I'm not opposed to trying anything new-"