I need to get this off my chest
I need to express
All of the pain I hide
But I have no one to confide
I wish I was alone
So could cry in peace
But I'm surrounded
And no one understands
It's difficult
Unimaginably
Difficult
The simple tasks
Are Herculean feats
As if my body didn't already ache
This was supposed to be a relaxing experience
A break from the stress of life
I want that back
The hallways of yelling
Long walks to avoid
The
Fact
That
The
School
Still
Leaves
Me
Vulnerable
Here I should be relaxed
Encouraged
Free to stretch my limbs
Spend time freed
Released
But I sit here writhing in pain
My struggles must be kept personal
It's too hard to explain
And nothing can silence it
Music
Laughter
It pulls at me
The simplest task undone
Pulls me
I pray for forgiveness
For a simple bit of forgetfulness
I always remember too late
I can run after a million cars
And scream a million times
And throw my arms in despair
But I doubt it will ever be good enough.
