Through the Chaos

It Takes Me Back

Authors Note: Hey love before we get started if drug abuse,alcohol abuse, anxiety, or depression, trigger you please do not read. With that being said enjoy the story 💛

No.No.No. Not again, all I feel is pain and sadness as I hear the news I will never forget again. It still feel like I just heard it for the first time. I ajar my self awake from the horrible nightmare, or should I just say memory because what happened wasnt night at all but instead a very real memory. Clock read 3:48 AM. I hated night like these the most. I hate these nights because the nightmare steady remind me of just how much someone life can change in just a short amount of time. But mostly because it make me think of him.
•9years ago•
"Izzy" Claire called. "Get up were gonna be late." I rolled over groaning because I didnt want to get up fro another boring day at school. "I'm up." I said half awake. I got up and stumbled to the bathroom to try and wash the sleepiness off.I swear everyday it becomes a harder challenge to get my degree. I took my meds,got dressed, and waited on Claire to get out the shower. She takes the longest I have seen somebody take in a shower. I'm in and out in 10 minutes tops.
As I made my way to Claires kitchen I seen Megan and Lucy, Claire two little cousin already at the table fixing cereal. "Mind fixing me a bowl?" I said to either one of them."yea I dont mind, cinnamon toast crunch?" Megan asked. "Yea thanks." I yoaned back as fixing me a cup of coffee. Megan is 12 while as her sister Lucy is 11. Claire is my bestfriend, hell we might as well be family by now all the shit we been through. I pretty much live here to avoid my family. Claire and I family are both dysfunctional, only difference is Claire got away from hers when her grandma adopted her. Meanwhile I'm still stuck in my living hell. Claire lives with her two cousins,grandma,brother Sebastian, and Sebastians girlfriend Lexi. "Leave that out." Sebastian called out to Megan about the cereal. "Goodmorning." Claire said to everyone as she entered the kitchen. Goodmorning we all said back. "Hey bubba mind looking at my oil when you're finished? The change oil light is on again." Claire asked. "Yea I'll check it out in a minute." Sebastian replied back without taking a break from eating. Sebastian is about 6ft tall,brown hair, brown eyes,and really tan. I guess thats because Claire's grandma is part Native American. Honestly jealous of how easily they tan. I'm pretty sure my ancestor are from Ireland. I have skin white as Casper,freckles,and would have red hair but I keep it dyed because I despise it so much. One perk is I have blue eyes though. Truth be told I have had the biggest crush on Claire's brother or the last 4 years so since I was 13. He has a slim muscular type build, but a few years ago he was more heavier and living in a small town rumours spread like wildfire. "Strung out like his mama" "Look at that weight he lost" "Another one of those kids in that family on that stuff." He always made like it didnt bother him, but I know deep down it did.  Guess that perks of everyone knowing everyone here. "Yall ready to go now?" Sebastian asked looking at us both. We shook out head yea as we followed him out the door, and to the car. He raised up the hood of the car and after pulling up the dipstick he called over the top of the "hey will one of you run to my bedroom and grab the oil on the dresser?" "I got it." I called back. I did a slight jog to the front door, it was freezing. It hardly ever gets this called in the south, and today it was 24°F outside. I stopped by the heater a quick second before going to his room. When I entered his room I grabbed the bag on top the dresser with the oil in it and started out his room. The walls of his room is covered with photos of him and Lexi. A part hated that because I know she got ones of the goods ones, but another part was happy for her. Lexi was really pretty and sweet and her and Sebastian has been together for almost 3 years now. The love they have for one another Is beautiful.