Invisible Chains [Sequel to I Do(n't)]

Chapter 5

Ida's POV-

The next morning, when I woke up, Loki was sitting at the desk with his face in a book. Although, he did not seem to be too into it. He was kind of fumbling with his chin between his fingers and his leg was bobbing up and down.

Anxiety. I knew the feeling all too well.

I got up from the bed and walked over behind him, quietly. Then I gently slipped my arms around him, enveloping his body into a tight hug.

"Are you okay?" I whispered.

"I was up all night" he lowered the book.

"Why were you up all night" I pressed a kiss into his cheek.

"I just could not sleep, I suppose" he shrugged.

I let him go and walked over to the dresser, rummaging through what mostly appeared to be my father's clothes. I found a grey sweatshirt and slipped it over my bare chest. The whole room was freezing.

"Why couldn't you sleep?" I asked him, falling back down to the bed and rolling over onto my stomach.

"A lot on my mind" he spun around slowly in the chair, propping his elbow on the arm rest.

"It is me, isn't it?" I asked him.

"It is not you, Darling" he murmured. "I just feel uneasy in this place"

"I understand" I rested my cheek against my arm. "But this is a one time thing, you know? It is our first big adventure together, aside from marriage, I mean. It is something new that we get to experience together"

Weakly, he smiled. "I know. I do not wish to ruin it for you, Darling. I will try to put your feelings before my own. You have done so much for me, it would be unfair to take this away from you"

"Is there anything that you want to tell me about the exact reason why you do not like them?"

"I feel like I have already told you" he narrowed his eyes a little at me.

"I guess" I tilted my head.

"I do not know, maybe I do just need to destress and compress" he set the book down and stood in front of me.

I blinked up at him.

"Why don't we switch spots?" he held out his hand for me.

I accepted it and let him help me off the mattress. He sunk down onto the quilt, then took my arm and coaxed me down to my knees.

I knew what he was hinting for, but I had not done this ever in my life. I did not know the first thing about pleasing a man other than letting them penetrate me.

Loki reached for his pants, unbuttoning and then unzipping them. Skillfully, like I am sure he had done a million times before, he pulled his length from its fabric imprisonment.

"I do not know what to do" I admitted as he began to stroke it.

"I can teach you, tell you what feels good and what does not" with his free hand, he took the back of my hair in his fingers and edged me down closer.

I could already see that he was hardening. There was also a little drop of pre-cum already escaping his tip.

Carefully, I slid my lips over him, unsure of what I was supposed to do with my hands.

"Make sure you do not use your teeth" he instructed. "You can use your tongue, too, if you would like"

I nodded into him, sliding my mouth over him as far down as I could go. Obviously, I knew he was big. He had been inside of me, after all. Although I never thought about the whole gag reflex ordeal. There was never a reason to, and honestly, I was never that curious.