April 7, 2015
Today I was actually a good day. i had a good time with my friends after school. I showed my three closest friends my addition to the collection (my cuts) Honestly i have never showed any one my cuts before so it felt entirely different. My boyfriend doesn't even know that i cut still. When people see the old cuts from my arm, i just smile or try to laugh it off and i walk away. Someone asking about your cuts and why you do them is a very personal question if i tell you that means i truly trust you with my life. Not that i would actually put my life into anyone's hands.
Anyway, changing the subject. I;m getting my nails done today and i'm honestly excited. Growing up my mother and i struggled. I honestly think my dad was the one holding us back. it's one thing to abuse me but its an entirely different when you put your hands on my mother. The one who breaks her back everyday to make sure i was taking care of, and to see her come from that to now. She started from rock bottom and now she has a job that gives her a lot of money and she owns her own business. (Affordable tax services) i am honestly very proud of her. i'm excited for getting my nails done because growing up we didn't have money to buy cute clothes, shoes, jewelry, and etc. so i never really learned growing up how to be a girl and wear clothes. My father wouldn't let my mother and I wear pretty clothing. So i'm happy that i get to do this now.
I just think Spanish is such a beautiful language. More beautiful then french. My boyfriend is Mexican and when i hear him speak Spanish i swear i melt every time. i don't know what it is about the language but i really love it.
Well that is all for today :) Good-damn-bye
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