Aki ito - Red Thread Of Destiny

Chapter 1 Just run away

POV GULF

I set foot on Thailadese's ground after three years of absence but it hasn't changed at all. I leave the airport and I slip into a taxi because I do not want to wait for the shuttle and especially now I can afford it, as well as a new apartment. By now I should be used to the chaos of the city but this Thai always manages to irritate me. Luckily I immediately found an apartment in the center thanks to the help of my friend, person who convinced me to come back for the delicate issue that now brought me back here in Thailand; discover and talk with the parents of my donor, and FINALLY we are there! It took a year but eventually he discovered his identity! In two days I will know his name but for today I must first settle in the new house where a few days have arrived even all my things and you know a move is always challenging! I can wait another two days and the jet lag is felt!
After giving my new address to the taxi driver I put my head down and close my eyes relaxing for the duration of the trip.

POV MEW

--Today I lost you for three years my love.. I've also been three long years in which your parents have kept from me a truth that I deserved to know...-I say with a barely controlled emotion..
-I'm standing here in front of your tombstone because I need to feel close to you... I haven't seen yours since, and now they're telling me that your heart is in another one.. -whisper beginning to shed all the tears for the sadness .

-- How should I react? How could they lie to me about something so important? Fear that I would have hindered perhaps.. But I would never have done it! I would have respected your wishes, because that's what you decided...-A gust of wind stops me from continuing, as if Thiwat wanted me to stop.
I take a big breath, I dry my tears and I lay the white Iris, your favorite flower, in the vase adding water . I've been sitting here talking to him for almost an hour because I need to figure out how to deal with this burden..
-Thiwat .. I want to know the person to whom you gave your heart!! -- I decide.
Another breeze but this time light and that carries with it the scent of the Iris so I take it as an encouragement to move forward. I put my hand to your lips and I give you a kiss which I then give him.
-I miss you so much. I still love you so much, my love-I get up and head to her parents' house it's time to talk to them about what happened three years ago..
As soon as I get in the car my phone starts ringing I answer, it's my assistant who reminds me of my appointment with the manager of my exhibition at the auction house.
-- Luke ,call and cancel the appointment.. I have an emergency. Excuse me and try to postpone it until tomorrow, please. Do it also with my other commitments of Today please.. -- I ask quietly.
-phi.. did something happen? You're not well? --she asks me apprehensive.
We've been friends with the Luke's for ten years before he became my personal assistant. But she's more like a mother hen for three years now, but she's not to blame.
In the period after Thiwat's death I entered an acute depressive phase where I was forced to undergo periodic checks in hospital because of my psycho-physical state , which led me to faint at every strong emotion; therapy sessions by the analyst for constant desire to die, end it and follow him.

It is also thanks to him and to all our friends that I have taken back my life and held onto it. Now I haven't relapsed in two years, until the other day. After learning that Thiwat's heart was given he transplanted something into me broke. I was so shocked by the news that I passed out on the floor and stayed there for two hours. That's how Luke found me when he came to bring me lunch; and that's why he's so apprehensive, because he's afraid I might relapse again.
--No Luke quiet --I hurry to answer-- nothing bad happened, they called me Ellen and Alex. They want me to go to dinner with them. - Actually they didn't invite me but Luke always told me to put the past behind me and this implies that I have to get away from them and this time I can't listen to him. I have to listen to their reasons because they lied to me and I admit that I am deeply disappointed in their behavior.
-- Mew .. You know how I feel.. Their closeness will not make you feel better! On the contrary, they may unknowingly bring you to be sick again, and your fainting is proof of that. -- confesses with a sigh.
-Luke, don't worry.. The fainting of the other night is also due to too much work stress.. Until I start the show, I'll be under constant stress. --I tell him hoping to be convincing.
--P. . don't take me for a fool.. I saw the letter and I know why you will meet Messrs Phawattakun -- tells me with disappointment.
--then you know I have to.. We need to clarify.. -I tell him-now I go the road is long and I don't want to be late- I tell him but before I disconnect the call makes me promise to call him later, should I be too upset.