Aki ito - Red Thread Of Destiny

Chapter 7: Try to understand me

POV MEW
It's been three hours and no message from Gulf. We were supposed to be together since the show ended, but he ran off on a sudden engagement, but I think that's an excuse.. After what happened in that room Gulf was no longer the same. It was very shy .
"Beep'
I'll get my cell phone and see if Tul's been able to find out from Max where he lives.
"I send it to you but Max will rip all your hair off your head if you make him suffer.. according to him, has already suffered too much ..." I read and immediately after he sends me the address. I pass to buy dinner and I drive up to his apartment which is located near the lake that I love so much. I park a little further from his apartment because I need to walk and calm down. Since he left the art house I feel restless, that's why I'm rushing to him. After Ty died, I didn't think there was anyone who would take me as much as Gulf did. Even if that's the only thing that should stop me, I can't with Gulf, especially now that I've tasted his lips. Soft and sensual that made me crazy right away. I force myself and push the button of the bell. After a moment that for me seemed an eternity here he is opening the door with a surprise expression on his face.
--Mew.. what are you doing here? How...-Start telling me.
--If Muhammad does not go from the mountain.. the mountain goes to Muhammad.. I buy you dinner if you let me in.. -- I tell him with a smile on his face.
-- Come in.. -- tells me grabbing the envelope containing the dinner keeping my eyes low.
There's something strange about his behavior, now he's cold. But that's not what worries me , but the fact that he cried.He has red eyes and swollen sign that he cried for hours at least.

--Is everything okay? --I ask you not to be too intrusive.
-- No... we need to talk! -- he tells me sitting on the couch with his elbows on his knees.
--what happened? -- I ask to sit next to him -- you want to tell me why you cried? -I ask him by grabbing his hand and shaking it between my hands.
He lifts his eyes that are full of tears held back.
--Hey.. how can I help you? -- I try to ask by taking his face in my hands, but a tear begins to fall and I do not resist I approach and pick up the latter with my lips and I feel him wince. I don't like to see him like this because he moves away from putting his hands on my chest.
--Please don't make this any harder.. -- Whisper to me.
-- is there anyone else in your life yet?? --Does this question flash in my head
when he started being distant today.

POV GULF
-NO! Of course not! How come you think! I'm not the kind of person who kisses someone else if he's already busy! - I yell at him and I push him away.
-- OK. I'm sorry, you're a little cranky from this afternoon.
- it's true.. I am... but only because I have to talk to you about something and I don't know how to do it and especially how you will take it.. I don't know you at all. -- I tell him.
He, on the other hand, once again takes my hand and carries it to his chest.
-- you can talk to me about anything. -- it says even more clouding my mind.
--All right.. --I take a big sigh and start talking -- Mew I lied to you today about Ellen and Alex.. or rather it was a half-truth. -I tell him looking straight at him in the eye where I read surprise and even a hint of disappointment in fact lets go of my hand.
-- What do you mean? --He asks me seriously.

-- I tell you a part of my childhood.. When I was at primary school I had very few friends because of my very shy character.. really few. One day I asked one of them if he wanted to come and play with me at Play at my house, he accepted. When he arrived at what was then my home, my father treated him like a beggar, also speaking badly of my friend's father saying that he was a good-for-nothing and pulling him. I then took his side and the result was a month in detention. Obviously also the loss of friendship. -- I stop to look him in the eye -- that boy was the son of Ellen and Alex. SI Mew ... I knew Ty.. We were friends before my father ruined everything. -- I confess.
His eyes begin to fill with tears -- did you know Ty? What a strange twist of fate.. That's why you were so loose today ,Alex and Ellen know you-tells me with a smile.
--Mew.. there's something else.. -- I tell you by looking at my eyes and starting to shake me -- Ty... Ty.. -- I take great breaths because I feel a hyperventilation attack rise -- Ty.. lives inside me now.. -- I can finally pronounce .. by lifting my shirt I let him see the scar on my chest.
-- what.? --starts to say but understands right after seeing the latter. I see it whiten and start to be afraid of its reaction.. That look of his strikes me like a dagger so much that the heart returns to hyperventilation and this time I can not stop it. I lean on the backrest I close my eyes and with my hand to my heart I try to regularize my breath.
-- Mew...-- I can whisper.