Abuse Is Not Love

Part 23

He returned 10 minutes later...

I was tied up so I couldn't get up and run I just sat on the ground crying I couldn't scream he had tape on my mouth he said he didn't want me to wake the baby and my screams get on his nerves I noticed he had a whip and some baby oil which really freaked me out considering the fact I had a clue on what he was about to do

He untied me then tied me back up again to chain that were on the celling and had me hanging for a while then he got some chain off the ground and tied my feet which made me hang in a "x" shape

he started to rub the baby oil all over my body real slowly and then he stared talking

"Yn Yn Yn Yn Yn babygirl what can you not get through you head that I don't like hurting you both the stupid shit you do baby I have to just to let's say teach you a lesson " he said raising up from rubbing the oil on my legs and thighs the he begin to rub it in my stomach arms and he slowly rub someone my back then he kissed my back and laughed to his self

"You back is so beautiful and smooth " he kept laughing "I hate to fuck it up now because bitch you will learn today" he walked off getting the whip he had dipped in oil for a while

I began to beg and plead to tell him I wasn't gonna do it anymore but he didn't listen .. he never did

He walked towards me and kissed my lips and started beating me the pain was unbelievable after 5 licks i completely black out

N e x t D a y ☀️

I woke up to find my self still hanging and I looked down at all the blood that was on the ground and down at my scars on my stomach I just put my head down in shame I really hated it here and I wanted to leave this is not a safe place for my child to grow up also It was raining really hard out and I love rain it always seem to keep me calm

As I was just hanging there marcus came down to the basement he didn't say anything to me he just picked me up and threw me over his shoulder I quickly cover my mouth as I began to cry my stomach hurts so bad and he just threw me over like I wasn't shit

He went up the stairs and sat me in the tub that was fill with bubbles and water I started to silently cry as the soap because to get in to my deep cuts this was the worst feeling ever

He still hasn't said nothing to me yet he just gave me a towel and walked out I'm guessing he only walked out because he heard the baby crying

I started to bath my self once I funded the bah was filled with my tears , water , soap , blood , and a part on my life that I'll never get back

I got out and dried and put on some grey long baggy sweats with a black long sleeve shirt and some socks i put my hair up and walked out the bathroom seeing marcus watching tv with the baby on his chest sound asleep I walked over the bed not wanting to say anything to him and just got in the cover and laid down

He was staring at me I knew he was I could just feel it ugh why does my life have to be this bad I hate living in constant fear with my "boyfriend" I wasn't ever thinking about leaving again and I couldn't think about death in had a daughter to tend to I simply wanted to leave .