Troy was my crush since like 3rd grade... tall, deep voice, athletic, smart, funny, Troy was everything. There was one problem, Troy played nothing but games, he played them with most of my friends. From Tiana to Aiyana, there wasn't a friend he hadn't played. When Troy dated Tiana, I can't even lie, I still liked him. To this day, I still think that's why Tiana and I's friendship didn't last like it could've. Troy took the role of my little brother, even though he was the older one, Troy broke up with Tiana, Tiana cried, I... well I just sat there. One day, I decided to message Troy, I told him everything, we talked everyday and it got to a point where Troy was more than a friend. Troy was the person I went to if I needed to cry, if we didn't talk everyday, I wouldn't be abke to function. The day of my birthday, Troy and I got into a fight. Social media causes the worst, Troy said he was sorry, I blame myself for being stupid, whatever Troy said hypnotized me and I was in awe of everyhing he said. It was the worst crush a girl could have. I, Janice Ciciago, regret it, Troy's name made my heart skip a beat. We'd barely video chat, but when we did, his voice made my insides swirl up and swish around. Normally this feelng made me throw up, but it was Troy, the guy I've been wanting. He was a good friend, he would let me rant to him, and he said he was listening. My fingers always trembled,"I'm sorry, I keep thinking we'll be a thing,", I hit send. The "D" became an "R" and he started typing. Oh crap I thought to myself. "It's okay...One day there might be...", my brain stopped functioning, I told Troy to stop playing with me. I told him I really wanted that, I was just scared he would do to me what he did to my friends. It was funny, that day Troy revealed something, he feared the same. We were just friends who spoke like lovers and that was only because we were scared to love each other. The best mistake I ever made was confiding in Troy, after that he blocked me out of his life.
