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 Nostalgia poured on me all day today, like a thunder storm here to scare me away. I close my eyes as Happier Than Ever by Billie Eillish begins, gripping my soul and relaxing my body through my trusty headphones. Mémé's smile and embrace makes me realise home was here along, I never should have left.... Nonchalantly my eyes open to see the roof of Mémé's restaurant, an energetic yellow with swirls of a blissful lilac purple. Each detail reminds me of my life before I left. I can't help but think it's trying to convince me to stay... But roofs can't do such a thing. With a half laugh and a sigh, I stand. Weaving between the restaurant tables. I reach the kitchen. A grin covers my face. Eric and I had been feeding each other Crème Brûlées, it really felt like old times; me sitting on the bench and Eric in front of me with 1 arm on the bench to my right and the other to my left. My eyes move around the room, scenes of today play out everywhere. I gradually set my eyes on the clock above the office door. 10:30pm. Aish~ I spent too much time daydreaming, Speed walking, I grab Mémé's recipe book, switch the lights off and head for the back door. Billie reminds me that I have music playing by her voice slowly getting angier, I can feel her frustration while her indie-like song progresses into rock.

"You call me again, drunk in your Benz ~Drivin' home under the influence

You scared me to death, but I'm wastin' my breath ~'Cause you only listen to your f***ing friends" Locking the back door I turn around. My entire face goes pale as I look up. Billie's song adds to the addrenline flying through my body. I bolt for the parking lot, not thinking, I don't don't close my eyes afraid to see if my brain had enough time to know what it looked like. Whipping my head back to see if it's following, I realise nothing is there... Did I just imagine it? My head swirls, no I'm sure I saw something....

"~I don't relate to you ~I don't relate to you, no ~'Cause I'd never treat me this sh***y ~You made me hate this city" The bass increases my panic, any movement makes me fidget. Without any warning the chase begins again. It makes its presence awfully known with the screeching of the floor and its loud breathing. My headphones could not block this. I look back once again, only to fall to my knees losing my phone along the way. I frantically look around, inhaling the revolting scent of my sweat. Scrambling I find a corner to huddle in. I'm violently shaking, crying, my heart beating faster and faster. I pull my knees to my chest and tuck my head in between. I pray to whatever is out there to save me and to do it fast. There's a loud screech before I hear it's distorted voice, it's deep but sexless voice. It's irregular breathing getting louder.

"One step..." thud "two steps" thud "three steps" my heartbeat fills my ears, my hand on my mouth, my eyes tightly shut, my crying silenced, all whilst the place goes quiet.

"I found you" Every joint in my body locks together, every ounce of my being freezes. It's breath, I can feel it breathing down my neck. My ears are suddenly bombarded with a song I know...

"~다시 Run, Run, Run, 난 멈출 수가 없어 ~또 Run, Run, Run, 난 어쩔 수가 없어~"

(Let's run, run, run again! I can't stop running ~Let's run, run, run again! I can't help running)

Jungkook's angelic voice bounces between the walls. 'I want to run JK, I really do.' A tear escapes, rolling down my cheek and slipping into my mouth through the quivering of my lips. I can sense it looking at me, waiting for me to respond. My nose is blocked, it's getting harder to breathe, my eyes sting, the pain, finally able to make its entrance since my body is no longer running.