I hate trauma
It causes so much hurt
I hate that I have to deal with certain emotions because things have happened to me
I have to constantly remind my self that
I AM a Goddess having a human experience
I hate that it's hard for me to trust
For the life of me it's hard for me to think otherwise
I'm tired
Tired of crying about emotions I can't control
Tired of meeting the same people in different bodies
I know that means it's something in me
But how in the hell do I not attract that?
The desire for true love consumes me
I seek it frequently for sure because I haven't
Tired of being tired
I hate feeling like I have no control
I hate expressing myself and you don't understand where I'm coming from
I hate feeling like I can't share how I'm feeling with you
I hate that I feel like my kindness is my weakness
I hate how everyone in this world is so damn wicked
I hate that it's easy for them to take advantage of me
I hate that I can't see them until it's to late
As I look back at dates
I get upset thinking it's them but it's something in me
The things I am upset about in others I should self reflect a questionnaire
Why don't I have self control?
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Cloud 9ine
PoetryCloud9ine is a series of poems about my emotions, frustration, and sexual relations. This is dedicated to my "friend(s)", who all make me feel some type of way. I wish I wasn't such a honey bee.
