polyamorous

chapter 11

I take the lead to find my parents, I don't trust Collins enough to know he will do a good enough job finding them. He puts his hand on my back, kind of like a guide. I push through crowds of people and they consume me, they consume like a massive wave in the ocean, holding me in until I am strong enough to push through. In that moment I am awaken from my ocean daydream (even though I have never traveled to an ocean) and I hear my mother's voice yelling for me "JENNIFER! JENNIFER! JENNIFER!" I push through the people and see her standing there. I can tell she looks furious. I know Collins can see her anger to because he leans to my ear and whispers "Nice going, Jen." I reach back and slap him and he hops off. My mom then goes off, "Jennifer, if you are ever going somewhere in a big place like this, which tons of people and crowds, you better tell me you. You screwed up and you better not do anything this damn stupid. Where did you even go?!" She is screaming at this point, I bet the people around can hear her and I start to panic. There is no way in hell I am going to tell her I went to fins Sam, so I make a lame excuse that hopefully works, "I went to find a bathroom." I don't think my excuse was good enough because my mom rolls her eyes and sighs. "Are you kidding me Jennifer?" Do you think I am dumb enough to believe you 'went to find a bathroom'?" Shit, my mind is racing with the thoughts of what I could say to her. I decide to tell another lie, "Look I needed the bathroom, but it took me so long because I was looking for Collins." I am hoping me goes along with it and gets my point when I touch his shoulder. "I walked away from Jennifer, I am sorry." Collins says to my mom and I huge relief is lifted from my shoulder, this is one of the reasons I like Collins so much. "Well then," my mom continues, "you two are both in trouble still and I can't allow you to be in this party and disrupt it." She reaches her hand out holding the keys to the car. I am confused because neither of us can drive but she enlighens me saying, "because you two screwed up so badly, you can go sit in the car until the party is over." Part of me is happy his desicion, it gives me some alone time and I wont have to deal with the massive amount of people, it allows me to calm down and let go of my anxiety. At the same time Collins and I say, "Okay" to my mother and I reach out and grab the keys a little to aggressively from her hands. When we reach the exit, I soak in the party vibes and let the music fill my body and soul for the last time. Collins speeds up and opens the edit door for me, I have never seen him being such a gentlemen. "Thank you" I say to him, along with locking eyes with him for a split second. This causes him to smile, showing off his perfectly straight white teeth. The walk to the car is cold, silent, unforgiving, and sad. I can hear the music becoming quieter each step we take. Collins sees my shivering from the cold air and throws his arm over me. His arm is vainy and built, it is really attractive and comforting. I suddenly remember Sam and my heart is racing, Sam makes me nervous in the best way possible. I can't stop thinking and hoping and wondering if he has texted me yet. I left my phone in the car so I will be able to find out soon. I am very impatient but before I can even think about the possibilities of words Sam could concoct to create his first message to me, a loud ding combined with an unlocking noise awake me. We finally reached the car and for some reason we both hop in the back seats. The first thing I do is reach for my phone, I turn on the lock screen and see no texts, all I see is my phone wallpaper and the time and date. My stomach droppes and my heart feels like it was just stabbed. To be realisitic though, I understand why he probably hadn't texted me yet... he is still at the party and is probably busy. I turn off my phone, all the way off, and put in the the pocket of the seat in front of me. I look up to see Collins leading over the console messing with the radio, he knows music is one of my favorite things to exist. He puts on the mix he made for me, consisting of all my favorite songs. I can't help but smile. He is still leang over and my eyes wonder, I look at his legs and ass. His legs are built and perfectly formed and he has a very nice butt. After looking at Collins like that, I want to look at Sam like that and wonder how he is bult. I continue to observe Collins, his black wallet peaks out of his right back pocket and his phone out of the other. I lean back and fix my hair as he leans back into his seat. The car radio plays the tunes that stop the awkward silence. Colling then says, "Jen, I know I told you this already, but I really like you and I really want you to know that." I smile and blush a little. I look down and Collins reaches over with a gentle hand and lifts up my head. I grab his hand and and before I realise it our hands are intertwined with each other.