Karl x Chris oneshots

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Chris takes a deep breath and hits record. Karl is hugging him to try and make him feel better. Kissing his shoulder and his head.

"Hey I know this isn't a normal type of video I just want to talk about some stuff." Chris starts trying his best not to cry. "Umm I just got out of the hospital a few hours ago cause I umm i-i." Chris tries to say but start crying.

"Shh I know it's okay." Karl says kissing his shoulder with Karl's hand messing with Chris's hair dropping his hand to Chris's back.

"L-ast night I-I tried t-to ta-take m-my own l-life." Chris stutters. I wasn't I'm my right mind then and it was stupid that i did and I-i don't know why I did it honestly I don't." Chris explains.

"The reason I'm making this video is because you guy have asked me what was wrong since I wasn't in the last MrBeast video and I also want you to know that your not alone at all I know it feels like it but your not really and I know my words don't mean anything to you and that's okay I get it you don't know me I'm real life. I don't want you to think your not enough for your friends, partner, or family cause I swear you are loved my many people and I know it doesn't feel like it cause your mental health gets in the way of everything you want to do and it suck it does." Chris explains.

"I have been dealing with depression most of my life not just me but Karl has to but the worse thing is well first I know you guys tell Karl he doesn't do anything for me and I don't love him and it would be good for me if he just left which first no it wouldn't or I'd probably won't be here." Chris says.

"No don't say that yes you would yes you would." Karl kisses the side of Chris's neck.

"If it wasn't for him I wouldn't be where I am right now. He has showed me what love is really like cause I grew up in a toxic home I think highschool was the best time for me to come out cause I had people support me. Me and Karl have ups and downs we fight sometimes but he does take care of me and he tries to make me feel better and do the most for me. Sometimes I feel bad cause I don't seem as greatful as I want to be for the things he does for me. Sometimes I do think he deserves better at time and he deserves someone who is more mentally stable than someone who is disabled like me." Chris explains.

"No don't say that baby no,no,no." Karl tries not to cry.

"No don't cry." Chris whispers in his ear. Karl shakes his head and lays in Chris's lap and starts crying.

"Baby why are you crying?" Chris asks worried.

"I almost lost you I don't want you to leave y-yet." Karl hugs Chris's waist.

"I know I know I'm sorry." Chris kisses Karl's head.

"This video was already hard enough to make and I hate seeing Karl cry like this it is not fun to see and not fun to be around cause then I think it's all my fault and I can't do anything about it." Chris explains.

"Stop it it's not your fault stop saying that." Karl gets off Chris's lap and wipes his tears.

"I know what it feels like being alone for all my life. I didn't really get a normal childhood when I was a kid. I would always get yelled at stuff throwed at me my dad was diagnosed with Cancer when I was 6 and he sadly passed away when I was 9 years ago and I had to stay with my abusive mom that drank 24/7 and taking care of my brother alone. Now I'm 25 living an amazing life that I love but just because your doing something that you love or want it doesn't mean your always happy cause sometimes you have those days where you just want to stay in your room and cry. I felt like that all the time but my friends wouldn't let me just cry cause they tell me how amazing and strong I am all the time and that makes me feel less sad I guess. It's just you can't the worst feeling you could feel and I love the people around me. I know I'm not alone but it always feels like it. My anxiety kills me all the time cause I can't do most things and it sucks." Chris explains. "Karl anything you want to say?" Chris asks wiping his tears.

"Just if you ever feel alone talk to someone cause always thinking like that can toll with your mental health and can mess you up and leading you to stupid things." Karl explains. "I remember I was going on a walk next to the highway and it was nothing dangerous just some of cars driving and I was walking over a bridge a-and I put my hand on it and tracing it if that makes sense. Then I stoped looked down. I saw an 10 feet bridge that had no water and it was just harden concrete. I was looking down thinking of what happened if I jumped and I'm happy I didn't. I think the first time I thought about suicide was 8 years old I know it's young even tho I had a great life but I felt like I was no one it fucking sucked it really did. It took a toll on my mental health. But please if you ever feel like way get help please I know you don't know me but getting help it will help you slowly real real slowly but at least your getting help and that's all that matters." Karl tries to smile.

They end the video