🍀 Just lucky 🍀 (HINAKOMA)

Ｂａｄ ｔｈｏｕｇｈｔｓ

TW: Gay, inappropriate language, boyxboy, and idk
(I've been having a rough time, and thoughts so.. yeah. This is just projecting some stuff from me to this story)
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Hajime Hinata's POV:

Komaeda and me have been together for awhile. It's now June, so we're on summer break! But something has been bothering me a lot, about Nagito's thoughts... he's always been a negative thinker, and I've helped him a lot with that, sometimes I feel like his thoughts just make him sick to his stomach so he doesn't say anything about them, until it explodes out of him.

While I walked into the lounge Mikan, Chiaki, and Komaeda was there (Ko was waiting for me). While smiling at the boy, he gave a small cheeky smile.. the nurse turned to look our way "A-Are y'all two t-t-together?... sorry f-for asking s-such a question!" Chuckling, I set the cup of tea next to Nagito, and sat next to him "We are... it's kind of obvious." "R-Right! Right!" Turning back at Chiaki: who had a intense look on her face, while looking at the Game boy. The pale boy was just looking inside of the cup, "You can drink it?" Looking at me, "Oh... I know! I just think somebody like me which is trash, doesn't deserve tea that was made by you." Setting it on the coffee table, I grabbed his shoulders "Listen, you aren't trash, and don't think like that sweetheart." His face flushed and he nodded, and grabbed the tea cup again... and took small sips. God, I wish he knew that he wasn't a ounce of worthlessnesses! Sighing, he looked at me again "D-Did I make you stress out again..?" "No hun, not at all." Smiling at him, he nodded slowly and looked down.

Nagito Komaeda POV:

Spoiled.

Selfish.

Ugly.

Worthless trash.

I don't deserve any of this. Hajime treats me to good that it hurts. I probably make him mad just being here... as I looked out the window, water trickling down the window, it was so soothing, smiling a bit.. god... I don't understand why I have all this, I don't deserve any of this. "You okay?" Looking at the boy, he gave a look, and I just said "Yeah" Hajime put the cup down, and scooted closer to me on the couch. Grabbing my cheek and making me come closer, he planted a soft kiss on me and I smiled and kissed him back. "Go be gay somewhere else🙄" Hajime laughed and looked at Chiaki "You're just mad." He pulled me up and we started waking hand-in-hand, and while we walked, those intrusive thoughts kept stabbing me... "Hey Hinata-Kun." He then looked at me, and with my free hand I fiddled with the hem of my shirt "I don't deserve all this love, do I really need to be treated so well by you..?.." Stopping so quickly, he pulled me back and grabbed my waist, "Sweetheart.. I'm treating you how you should be treated. I tell you every day..." Kissing my for head, I blushed and kissed his cheek, "I-I don't deserve this.." My eyes watered and he pulled me into a hug, "I like you so much Komaeda." He stopped and said "You deserve the world from what you've been through.." "No I don't, this is me being selfish." He hugged me tighter which made a tear roll down my cheek that I quickly wiped, and he stopped hugging me and held my shoulders "You aren't selfish for wanting attention, you aren't selfish if you want love. Ok?" Nodding slowly. Hinata gave me a warm smile and kissed me, which of course I kissed back.
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Narrator's POV:

As they went to their dorm Hinata came to the conclusion that it's really hard for the pale boy to accept this love he's getting.. I mean, his brother literally hurt Komaeda. All Hajime knows is that he wouldn't dare lay a single hit, or abuse on the boy.

Komaeda sat down on Hinata's bed and laid his head on the brunettes lap. "You okay?" Playing with the fluffy hair, Nagito nodded and gave a loud sigh and closed his eyes. "I love you." Nagito's heart beat started to race, "Did I pull the word to soon?" "Not at all!" Turning his body so he was looking at Hajime, the brunette smiled.
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"They can't live happily ever after."

"And they won't. I'll make sure of it."

"How do I know you won't let me down?"

"Have I ever let you down?"

"No..."

"So what makes you think anything less?"

Izuru sighed. And rubbed his head, god how he hated seeing Nagito so happy... even though he knows the fragile boy is only going to get his heart broken.

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Hii! Sorry I haven't been active, many things came up. Then I started feeling a bit real sad, so yeah... have a wondering day/night/afternoon wherever you are :)))