Passion (H.S)

Chapter 26

Harry's p.o.v

Liz and I had just got back from McDonalds and were now sitting down on her sofa. Her body was laid out on the 'L' corner of the sofa, with my head resting on her stoach as she ran her hands through my hair. Liz was wearing black leggings with a loose mint green crop top and a tight black cardigan.

I closed my eyes and sighed as her hands continously played with my hair. It would have been relaxing if I wasn't about to tell her about my past and family. The twisting and turning of my guts gave me an uneasy feeling.

Worry, guilt, anxiety, concern. These were only some of the feelings going through me at the moment. I thought about how I could tell her about all this but it's hard, so hard. This secret is my secret. And to be honest I really didn't want to tell her but I know that I need to. I mean I guess I have too really, she's going to want to know what happened to my family at some point, and she will get suspicious.

I huffed in annoyance at myself. I need to get this together.

"You okay?" I hear Liz's voice ask me. I open my eyes to see two beautiful eyes filled with concern, looking into mine.

"Uh, yeah. I-uh just.." I sighed and got up and changed my postion so i was now sitting across from her. Our knees were just touching as we both sat crossed legged, looking at eachother. I took her small hands in mine and entwined our fingers together as I leaned forward and pressed my forhead against hers.

If Liz left me after this I would be over. Done. Broken. I would never be able to tell another soul about this.

If she left me I would Never hold her again.

Never touch her again.

Never talk to her again.

Never see her again.

Never kiss her again.

Never do anything with her again.

What if she really did leave me..I'm a monster for what I've done. She'll hate me after this.

I sighed and closed my eyes, dreading the thought. Tilting my head I pressed my lips softly against hers. Saviouring the moment, for this may be the last time I get to feel her lips against mine. Our lips begin to dance in sync, neither of us moving just holding hands still. Deepening the kiss I swipe my tongue against her lip, she began to use her tongue as our lips continuously moved in sync. The kiss was slow and meaningful, not hungry or needy just sweet and savioring.

I broke away and starred into her eyes as we both caught our breath.

"Why are you being so.. weird? I'm not complaining or anything." Liz asked me, still holding my hands.

"I've been keeping something about me from you...That's pretty big..And I guess you should know.." I said slowly, being careful with my words. She looked at me confused before saying,

"Are you cheating on me?" I smiled and shook my head.

"No nothing like that..Probably worse acturally..." I sighed.

"You can tell me Harry, I promise I won't judge you or anything." She caressed the back of my hands with her thumbs.

"I'm more scared that you'll leave me than judge me.." I said avioding her gaze.

"Harry I'm not going to leave you.." She told me softly.

"Okay, but if you do I want you to know I love you so fucking much..." I breathed, closing my eyes.

"I love you too, Harry..Please tell me what your going on about.." She said. I took a deep breathe before replying.

"Its about my family.. When i was younger, like 5 or 6 everything was great. I had a heathy and happy family, until I was about 8. My parents were fighting alot more than usaul and began neglecting me and my sister, Gemma. They ended up getting a divorse when I was 10, so there was two years of fighting and arguments. Gemma and I learnt to become inderpendant and never really depending on our parents, we had eachother and that was enough. My dad ended up moving out so it was just my mum, gemma and I." I looked up at Liz to see her eyes fixed on me, really taking in everything I was saying.