For Worse, Or Better?

Chapter Ten

Belles POV

Mari fell in the door. Zayn was attempting to hold her up but he was just as drunk as she was. Louis found some alcohol, I don't know how because its not legal for most of us to drink alcohol in America but we did anyway. I think some of us had had a bit too much, like Mari. Her hair was a mess and she had ripped her skirt. Nichole was just as bad, Harry had already taken her into their room, but it didn't look like either of them wanted to sleep yet...

I think I had about three glasses, but I couldn't be sure.

"Whoops" said Niall as he caught me from falling onto the sofa, "I think we should get you to bed."

I attempted to say goodnight to everyone but Hannah was asleep on the sofa, everyone else had gone to their rooms and Will was trying to carry Hannah to bed.

Niall sat me down on my bed and went to leave. "Where are you going?" I asked him.

"You need to get changed, you can't sleep in your dress, and Will asked me to help him with Hannah."

"She's fine, she can sleep on the sofa, please don't leave me!" I got up and hugged him. We both sat down on his bed and I kissed him. It was just as amazing as before, where it felt like there was no one else in the world, no one but me and Niall.

"You still need to get changed though..." He said pulling away from me.

I don't know if it's because I feel comfortable around Niall, or because I was a bit drunk but I pulled my dress off while I was still sat in front of him and threw it on the floor. His eyes grew bigger as he stared at my body. I smiled at him but he wasn't paying attention.

I stood up and turned around walking towards my bed. He was still watching, and he couldn't say anything. I got out my pyjamas, they were pink, lacy shorts and a vest top to match. I pulled on my shorts and top over my underwear. I turned around to Niall who looked almost dead.

I put my hand up my top and undid my bra, pulling it from under my top and I put it on my bed, then I returned to Niall's bed where we continued kissing.

"Wow" was all he could say after a while. "You're.. Perfect."

Nialls POV

"Thanks mate, I don't think I could have moved her on my own" we both looked at Hannah who was now passed out on her bed instead of the sofa. Her dress was pulled up really high and she had make-up wiped all around her face. "Is Belle asleep?"

"No, I left her on my bed, I better go back she told me not to leave her alone" I told Will who was getting changed for bed as well.

I said goodnight to him and went back to my room where I found Belle asleep under my quilt. She looked so peaceful sleeping. I took my clothes off but left my boxers on and I got into bed next to Belle. I just looked at her for a minute, I looked at the fading bruises on her face and the cuts on her arm.

"I don't want him to come back" she said with her eyes closed. "I know he's not due back for ages but he will come back at some point."

I put my hand on her cheek and rubbed it gently. Her eyes opened and I could see the tears in her eyes.

"These last couple of days with you have been incredible, I don't want Sam to come back and ruin everything. He's going to be so mad when he finds out what I've done."

"Don't worry about him, he can't hurt you when I'm around, and you don't have to sleep in his room anymore, everything will be fine" I reassured her. I wiped a tear from her cheek and tried to smile but I could see the pain in her eyes.

"Can I tell you something, something that I have never told anyone else?" I nodded but I was scared of what she was going to say, I knew I wouldn't want to hear it but I had to listen to her if she wanted to tell me.

"Just over a year ago, when me and Sam started going out, when he didn't- you know, he was really sweet to me. He used to buy me things and take me out to nice places.  He would make me cancel my plans with my friends and go out with him instead. He made me stay at his place for as long as possible before I had to go home. I thought he just really cared about me. One day, when I was supposed to meet him for dinner, Mari asked me to go to a really important meeting for school with her because her parents couldn't go. I went to his house to ask if we could move it to another day but he freaked out at me." She paused for a minute and held my hand.

"He started getting really angry all the time, at everything I did. If I didn't look good enough when we went out and stuff he would start shouting at me. At first I shouted back, I told myself that I wouldn't let him control me but this one day, when i was supposed to be with Mari, he wouldn't let me leave. He told me he that I was stupid and I couldn't think for myself. He said I would be nowhere without him. I remember crying because of what he was saying but that just made it worse. I remember him pulling me up by my hair and shouting. That was the first time he hit me. He told me that if I ever told anyone, he would kill me."

"Belle, I'm sorry" I couldn't help the tears and we were both crying. "You don't have to tell me if you don't want to" I reassured her, not really wanting to hear anymore myself.

"I need to tell you, I need to tell someone." I nodded letting her continue. "After that, it became regular, and worse. He would hit me over stupid things, and it would hurt a lot more. But that's not the worst part. Even though I have never told anyone all that, this is what I really wanted to tell you."

She sighed and closed her eyes, I guess so she wouldn't see my reaction. "Please don't leave me after I tell you this, please promise me that you won't freak out."

"I promise" I whispered. She was still crying, but now more than before.

"He raped me, Niall." There was silence and I didn't know what to say to her after that. She opened her eyes again. "He used to rape me all the time, and after a few months, well I was pregnant." She stopped again. I wasn't crying any longer, I was just confused. I was angry at Sam but scared and upset for Belle.

"How? Wait, what happened to the, well baby?" I asked sitting up. I was so frustrated. Belle sat up too, the tears still pouring from her red, tired eyes. She looked down before telling me one of the worst things I had ever heard.

"I lost it. Sam didn't know, but I was a few months pregnant and I think he could sence something was wrong. He pushed me and I fell down some steps and... I lost the baby."

Authors Note: ohmygod I'm almost crying after that, sorry it was so sad I read it back and I was like WHOA, I didn't realise how intense it was. 

Anyway I'll try to write again some point this week and please vote, comment and fan if you liked it (: