I wake up the next morning like every other day with a black coffee, a bagel, and a hug from Niki. While we are eating, she tells me that her friends want to meet me.
"You could play on my account on the DSMP, you could play bedwars on your pc, or we could just chat. It's your choice!"
"Bedwars! I love that game!"
"Okay! I'll tell them!"
"Wait who all am I playing with?"
"Tommyinnit, WilburSoot, and Justaminx."
"Alrighty!"
As I am eating I check my phone and see a notification from twitter...
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@gayfeather user21 ayo this you??
30,000 likes 1000 retweets
Replies:
user4: they stream???
user59: wait is this actually her??
user88: If she streams I will be so happy!!!
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user1 yess me too :)))
user13 guys if they didnt tell us its probbaly for a good reason. Nobody has streamed on that account in months.
FUCK.
NOBODY WAS SUPPOSED TO KNOW ABOUT THIS. Don't get me wrong, I loved streaming but I have some not-so-positive experiences with it that might have ended me getting kicked out of the house and spiraling into a depressive state of mind with the occasional self-harm... I have been clean for 3 months now and I don't want to fall into that cycle again.
I rrrrrun to my room and curl up on my bed, hugging my frog plushie. I try to stop the attack, but I cant. The world blurs together and the tears keep falling.
Rhianna POV
I am streaming when I hear soft crying in the background. I frown.
"Chat I need to end stream now. Have an amazing day/night!"
I walk out of my room and hear the crying coming from Alex's room. I would tell Niki, but shes out right now, so I go into the room instead.
I see Alexandra curled into a ball, rocking back and forth and crying. I rush over and sit next to them.
"Hey, Hey! Breath, breath! Can you sit up and look at me?" She sits up slowly
"Good, now can you breath with me and focus on what you notice using your five senses?"
"In for 5, hold for 4, out for 7. Just keep breathing, you are doing great!"
She calms down after a few more breaths. I close my eyes and breath a sigh of relief.
"Thanks" they murmur
"Your welcome. Do you minnd telling me why you were so upset?"
She holds up her phone and shows me a tweet asking if a twitch account was hers. I dont understnand why that could set off such a breakdown, and I am about to ask about it when she quietly says, "I used to stream, but I got some negative comments that got me really down. Then I got kicked out and became majorly depressed and i- i hurt myself." The last part was barely audible.
"Oh Alex! I am so sorry you had to go through that! Me and Niki are here for you okay? She nods and I pull her into a big hug. I feel them relax, and we stay like that, as if frozen in time.
