Fool Me Once, Fool Me Twice

Wildest Dream

I know what I have to do when we break in. But I can’t do it without saying goodbye to him. I knock on the window and wave when he turns to look at me. He returns a smile as he opens the window and helps me inside.

“Jenny…”

“I missed you, Wade.” I sigh as I take in every detail of his face. He seems different; he seems older.

“It’s not safe for you here, Jen.” He warns, sliding the window closed and locking it.

“I know. I’m not staying for long. I just came to say goodbye.” I can barely get the words out. What Wade did was terrible, and if it had been anyone else it would be unforgivable. But it wasn’t someone else, and I have to forgive him. He kept track of me for all those years, and made sure I had somewhere to go after my parents died.

“I’m sorry about how we left things,” I murmur, “I know it wasn’t your choice.”

“You have every right to be upset, but you have to know that I love you. You’re my best friend, Jenny.” Wade shakes his head and his eyes start to glisten a little.

Then he’s kissing me. And I’m kissing him. I try to tell myself that this is wrong, that I’m with Nate and I’m happy, but everything inside of me is screaming to go further. Wade pushes me back through the living room and into his bedroom, our lips never once breaking apart. I’m against the wall and Wade is against me. He’s always been around, he’s always just been comfortable, but I’ve never thought of him in this way before. I run my hands under his shirt and over his smooth and solid abs. I can feel his hands gripping my waist as our lips move in synchronization. I pull my tank top off over my head and he yanks off his shirt before securing me once again in his grasp. His skin feels hot against mine as he slowly backs me down onto his bed. All I can smell is his aftershave, the smell surrounds me and draws me closer.

 He pulls away and suddenly he’s saying my name.

“Jenny!” He sounds distant, “Jenny! Wake up, Jenny!”

I gasp and my eyes fly open to see Kitty leaning over me.

“What?” I turn my head to see the clock; it’s three in the morning.

“You were tossing and turning…” She shakes her head, “Bad dream?”

“No. Not bad, just strange.” I breathe, “Go back to sleep, sorry I woke you.” Kitty lies back down next to me and closes her eyes. I wait for a few minutes, until Kitty’s breathing becomes deeper and slows before sliding silently out of bed. I slip into the closet and begin to pace. What was that dream? That’s not the way I look at Wade, I don’t understand.

I remember something they used to do at Skyline. They had this machine that was connected to your head, kind of like a brain scanner or something. The wires went through big machines and up to a monitor, where they would watch your dreams. They did it to the Fledglings that were causing trouble, to make sure they weren’t a threat. It started with an injection of some kind of weird anesthetic that made your dreams really vivid. They said that your dreams didn’t lie, and that’s why they watched them. Skyline are careful, they wouldn’t risk being wrong about something like that, so it must be true. If dreams don’t lie, what are mine trying to tell me?

I sit on one of the trunks and lean back against the wall. Tomorrow’s going to be a pretty big day, and I just sit and wait for the morning to come.

We’re all getting ready in silence, knowing that our mission could either be the best thing we’ll ever accomplish, or a complete and total death wish.

Me, Kitty, Grace and Tig are dressing in the closet when Nate comes bursting in. He never usually comes in while we’re changing, and he’s got this wild look in his eyes.