My Everything (Major Editing) (On Hold)

S e v e n

A r i a n a

"This tastes awful." I sat the glass down softly on the coaster. If I was going to relax I wanted to do it my way. I walked over to the small radio and tuned my favorite station.

"You don't drink because it tastes good." He laughed and took another hit from the stick.

I grabbed my glass from the table and chugged the rest, the liquid burned the back of my throat making me grab ahold of the couch. "You couldn't get a girl a chaser?"

"Chasers are for sissy's, and my girl is no sissy." He smirked

I walked over to the chair adjacent from Jason involuntarily swaying my hips to the music. "What happened? Who scared you?" I shifted uncomfortably in my seat.

"I don't know." I let out a breath before I explained the situation in as little detail as possible. "Well, I'm glad you're okay. I guess." I smiled at his effort. "I'm glad I'm okay too, thanks to you." I laughed.

He let out a breath of air covering his face with his hands. It seemed like he was processing everything but he soon let out a chuckle a smiled at me. "Your beautiful, and everything about you is beautiful. Your laugh, your smile, your heart. I just wish we could have met on better circumstances."

The room was silent for what seemed like forever, I got up to leave but Jason grabbed my hand pulling me back. Our faces were inches apart, his deep brown eyes pierced into my light ones. The only thing I could focus on was him. The music faded in the back and the air thinned. His lips connected in mine and we shared a moment, if only for a few seconds. My hands tangled in his hair tugging him closer and his grip tightened on my waist. My heart was racing and I couldn't control myself, I felt like a whole new person with him.

He picked me up and propped me against the wall while his hands roamed under my shirt exploring. A small moan escaped my lips as he kissed the sweet spot on my neck.

My whole body was in fire and it wanted more, but I couldn't let it. I pushed Jason's chest away and attempted to catch my breath while I pushed myself off the wall. "I think I've had a little too much to drink. I'm going to head upstairs." Jason nodded eagerly and followed me out of the room. "I just need you to give me a minute alone."

"Oh, yeah. Ill be down here working... if you need me. Or need anything."

***

My eyes opened to silence

Another day in the house of Jason McCann, anyone can lose their mind in here. I feel like mine is on a long vacation and my heart is substituting for a while. I can't shake my feelings even though I know they are wrong. The moment that me and Jason shared last night was passionate and sexy. I keep replaying it in my mind.

I made my way down stairs and saw Jason in his office. I debated whether I would go I or not considering the awkwardness between us. I took my chances and made my way into his office sitting in the couch while he faced the computer."Hey, I came to say goodmorning. I scanned his shirtless body quickly before he looked up from his laptop. "Where's Jane?"

"Why? What do you want?" I sat close to him on the couch and grabbed a pillow over my chest.

"Well, if you must know what I truly desire..." he looked up and smiled at my playfulness. "I want you to go back to the house and grab some stuff. I need my camera, my music, some pictures, maybe."

He closed the laptop and put it on the table. "You're in luck, I have to make a run tomorrow. I can pick it up on the way there." He got up and held out his hand for me. "Under one condition."

"Within reason. Shoot."

"Come join me in the kitchen for some coffee?" he smiled.

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"Hell no!" I miserably threw the remote at the tv when my favorite bachelor was voted off. "Even I had a connection, don't deny your love!!!"

The door opened slowly and in walked Jason looking like a raccoon, all he did was work and work and more work. He stripped of his clothes and climbed into bed alongside me.

"You okay?" I laid my head on his chest on traced his tattoos with my finger. "I've had an exhausting day, I'm sorry you were alone for most of it."

"I know you have to handle your bad guy stuff. I'm okay with being alone." He chuckled. "Bad guy stuff? Really, that's the best you could come up with."

"Well, yeah. It's not like I get to see you in action. I've got to use my imagination."

He kissed the top of my head and I rolled over to face him.

"Goodnight, love." He smiled.

. I couldn't tell if he was showing his true colors or if he was changing because of me. Either way, I liked this side of him. I cuddled into his chest remembering the rhythm of his heart as I drifted to sleep.

I hate you Jason McCann. I hate the way you make me love you. I hate how it feels to be vulnerable. So, don't make me regret it.