Can't be fixed

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I immediately jump back grabbing my backpack "wait Mike! I'm sorry I-I I'm sorry" Liam says shakily, I shake my head. "Why did you do that!?" I ask frantic, he goes to speak but I cut him off. "Look Liam, I don't care what you are but I'm not.." I trail off, looking at the petrified boy in front of me. I start to feel bad as Liams eyes fill with tears. I look down unsure of what to say. Liam kissed me.. is he gay? What the fuck is happening. "Please Mike don't leave! I'm sorry I don't know why I did that" he says getting up from the bed. I back up a little, unsure of what to do. I look up locking eyes with Liam. He looks so hurt.. he looks fragile. I drop my backpack running my hands over my face, what the fuck do I do? "Mike I'm sorry please don't leave me" Liam pleads, stepping closer to me. I stay put as I watch the fragile boy in front of me. I let out a breath I didn't even realize I was holding. "Why did you kiss me?" I ask looking at Liam. Liam shakes his head, "I don't know" I nod, not knowing what to say. "Does this mean you're not my friend anymore?" He asks as a tear slips from his eye. I look at the boy in front of me and think back to the last month of my life. What I realize is, he was the only one there. No one else, just Liam. He checked on me, he begged to have my company, he knows my name. Fuck, even my own mother forgets my name. He makes sure I have a ride, he makes me feel like..I'm not alone. I walk towards Liam, he steps back nervously "Mike I'm sorry please don't hurt me!" He pleads, I shake my head, jerking him forward by the collar and wrapping my arms around him. I feel him let out a breath as he wraps his arms around my waist hugging me back. It's been so long since I've felt any type of comfort. I don't even remember when the last time I hugged someone was. I feel him lay his head on my shoulder, my lips tug into a smile as I hug him a little tighter. I know this probably isn't the right time but it's been bothering me, "why were you crying when you came back from talking to Scott?" I ask quietly, he pulls away from me and sits on his bed. I follow his actions sitting next him. "Theo" he mumbles, "Theo?" I question confused, "I have to see him tonight, that's what Scott told me." I stare at him confused, why does he have to see Theo? "Just don't go" he looks at me like I'm stupid. "I have to Mike! you don't know Theo if I don't go he will ruin everything." He says falling onto his back. I look over at him seeing his shirt got pulled up revealing his v line. I find myself starring longer than I should have when Liam breaks the silence "Mike?" I look up quickly meeting his eyes. He smiles at me, "you can leave if you want, Scott is picking me up soon" I frown, he doesn't want to meet up with Theo. Why should he be forced to? "Nah" I say with a shrug, he sits up a little bit, "what do you mean?" He asks confused, "you're not going" I tell him seriously. "I have to Mike" he says sitting up fully. I shake my head. He rolls his eyes getting up and going through his closet. I watch as he pulls out a grey button up and a black t shirt. He looks through his drawers grabbing a grey beanie, I notice how familiar the grey beanie looks. I look over to the photo on Liams wall, I stand up looking at it. I feel some kind of ache in my heart realizing that's the same beanie Theo is wearing in the picture. "Why do you have that?" I ask confused, "what?" He asks, "his beanie" his eyes widen a little, "how did you..?" He starts but stops talking and puts the beanie back in the drawer. Theo gives me a really bad feeling. He's forcing Liam to meet with him when Liam clearly doesn't want to go. "I'll be back I'm gonna change" he says, I nod. He leaves the room and I stare at the picture again. In the picture Liam is smiling at Theo. My eyes widen is realization. Liam comes back in all dressed up I look at him surprised. "You look pretty nice for just going to see a friend" he smiles sheepishly, "I dress to impress" I hum as a response. I hear his phone buzz and we both look to where his phone is he grabs it opening it up. He looks at me, "umm, I have to go soon Mike. Will you come back?" He asks hopeful, "no" I respond meeting his eyes. The expression that crosses his face broke my heart. What is this kid doing to me? I don't act like this. "I understand Mike" he says looking down. I walk towards him lifting his chin up making him look at me. "I'm not coming back because I'm not leaving" he looks at me surprised. "You have to though Mike I'm meeting Theo" I shake my head. "No you're not"