I want it that way - Sabrina Quesada&Cooper Noriega

10. Only right answer.

Pov.Sab
It was already evening when I was sitting with Cooper under a warm blanket, sipping warm cocoa and talking on a variety of topics.  Nessa and Jaden went to the mall together to buy the last things needed for tomorrow's Christmas Eve.  I felt a bloody need to talk to him about an important topic.

- Cooper.. - I started, at which the boy looked from the fireplace, straight at me and sipped cocoa, waiting for my question

- Hmm?  - He muttered, watching me carefully, because he could clearly see that something was bothering me

- Well, recently in this  room we got stuck in, you mentioned your parents.. Maybe you'd like to talk about it? - I asked hesitantly, fearing some of his reaction

- Woah, will I really become a loser if I start confiding in you now? - His expression changed instantly, and I saw his hands begin to shake nervously

- You're not gonna be a loser, Cooper!  Emotions and feelings are not weakness! - I instructed him quickly, and he put his mug down on the table and looked at me sadly

- I know you might think that my life is perfect.  I know this is what it looks like and this is how I present it.  I hide everything under my mask of this "indestructible".  Do you think my parents ever cared about me ?  Do you think that whenever my mother came here, at least once, she asked me what was going on with me or if I needed anything?  Do you think I ever had a typical family time with her?  That I have ever felt loved, appreciated, respected by her?  The answer to all questions is NO.  - he said calmly, staring straight into my eyes, and I could feel my tears filling up - My mother has always been a workaholic.  She devoted all her time to her work and when I was born I would disturb her.  When I turned seven, she began to travel all over the world and work with various companies there, so she was not at home most of the time.  I can barely remember my father.  He left our family when I was only five years old.  Since then, he has never been interested in me anymore.

- What a fucking asshole! - I growled, wanting to wrench my legs off the ass of this man Cooper calls his father

- I completely agree.  - He snorted, gently smiling in my direction, but I felt that it was a very sad smile - Currently, I live with a housekeeper, whom you have already met.  I have zero contact with my father.  The mother comes here every few months.

- You don't deserve everything that happened to you.. - I grabbed his hand which was lying next to my leg and laced our fingers, wanting to show him some support

- Maybe I deserve .. I'm a cold-hearted fucking asshole after all. Everyone says so, so I started to believe it myself. - he muttered, rubbing his thumb over my skin

- You're not. - I announced, what the boy looked at me confused

- I'm not?  - He raised an eyebrow up and you can see that he wanted my answer

- You're not. You might have a hard time showing your feelings because no one has shown you that so you have a hard time showing them to others, but I know you are a really cool guy with a really good heart, Cooper.- saying this, I was the most sincere that I could be and you can see that my speech quite shocked the teenager

- Then why I hurt everyone so much? -  he continued, still inconsolable

- Cooper, just because your parents weren't present when you grew up and didn't support you, didn't teach you and didn't talk to you about anything, and you were actually brought up by yourself, it makes it hard for you to understand what is right and what is wrong.. I also think that in a way you are looking for a kind of escape from all these problems and thoughts, which is why you party so much, drink alcohol, get high and have so much sex with girls.  It is the kind of activity for you that makes you forget about the bad things in your life for a while.  - I told exactly everything that was in my head at the moment

For a while, we sat in complete silence.  The boy thought carefully about all the sentences I said in his direction. And I felt so damn proud of myself that I finally told him what I thought.  At the same time, it is very nice in my heart that he opened up to me so much and told me about his history and problems. This means that he really trusts me, which is a great honor for me, because I know how difficult and complicated a person Noriega can be.