I think I started to notice the differences with him around 8th grade. Which was about 9 years into us being friends for context. His hair was a little longer, and his shoulders were, wider? It was a weird thing to see and I was excited to see what kind of man he'd look like at the end of 8th grade, then covid hit. I didn't see him until the September of the next school year, our freshman year of high school. We didn't hang out much mainly because we didn't have the same classes, he is much smarter than me so he is practically a grade ahead of me. We still don't share classes a year later but we're both in the same club so we get to travel together, him and I stick with one another for the entire trip everytime. I like that, a lot. I feel like I can depend on him and he depends on me, I think... Every year that goes by his shoulders just get wider and he gets taller, he may only be like 2 inches taller than me but it's enough to make me jealous.
I don't think he likes me though. Mainly because I'm trans... I feel like I am so deep in that I would literally turn back to being a girl if that were the terms of going out with him. Which is terrible I know but I would take a bullet for this boy, what's staying feminine going to do to me?
