But I Don't Want Her! I Want You!|Skephalo fanfic|1800 AU

Chaper 4

         ⚠Tw: mention of self unalive⚠

"I have to think of something quick" I thought to myself in panic "shes gonna tell everyone and it will be all over for me"

I felt my heartbeat raised and my anxiety was up. It was all over for us, she was gonna tell my father. How would I explain kissing my guard in the middle of the hallway? I had to think of something quick or else I would lose Skeppy.

When I tried to talk I felt like I couldn't. Like I couldn't get anything out, was it the anxiety and fear I felt? It probably was, knowing I was going to lose Skeppy scared me. I didn't want to lose him, it would break me.

She saw the fear in my eyes and just smiled at me. Why did she smile at me? All that did was raise my anxiety and heartbeat. I just wanted to cry right then and there, I wanted to die. I feel like I would kill myself if my parents killed Skeppy.

I don't think I would kill myself,I knew I was gonna kill myself. I couldn't live without him. Skeppy wouldn't like that and would think its stupid I would ever do that so I don't talk about it."I won't tell anyone" I heard her say. I was brought immediate confusion.

Why wouldn't she tell anyone? I thought she was gonna tell everyone. I was still on edge because she could be doing this to get my trust than tell everyone. I had to be careful, I can't let this secret get out. My life will be ruined if this got out.

"I have a girlfriend" She told me

"Wait really?" Skeppy asked

"Yeah, I'm bisexual actually" Puffy replied

"Interesting"

I did feel a bit of release of anxiety but still so skeptical because I couldn't take any chances. She could be pretending to get more information to expose us. You have to be cautious or everything is litterly over and you and your partner will be torn apart.

"Um princess, your father is waiting for you" a guard said running over to her.

"Yes of course, I'm on my way right now" She said beginning to walk away.

She left and me and Skeppy immediately ran over to my room. It was to take a breather and talk about tthis more in private."that was dumb of us" Skeppy said sitting down.

"What was stupid" I asked

"Us kissing in the middle of the hallway, your father could have seen us" Skeppy replied.

"Yeah" I replied

"Also us talking in the middle of the hallway, someone could have heard us. What if someone did hear is?"

When he said that I felt my heart get tight and feel like I couldn't breath. Skeppy was right,what if someone heard us. Skeppy noticed and realized it was what he said.
"Wait, I didn't mean to scared you"

"Its fine, I needed to hear that. We need to be more cautious"

"But I scared you, I didn't mean to" Skeppy said very worried.

We sat there in silence for a while because we were trying to process everything. Everything sucked, we couldn't be free to love each other here. I hated it here and didn't want to be here.

I want to be free to love Skeppy without being shamed. I wonder if there is a society that would expect us? If there is than I need to get there. I don't care if I leave my family I want to be free and not shamed. I want to love my partner freely without anyone looking at us.

After a while Skeppy left to do his guard duties and I was left alone. I went to the library to keep my mind off things for a while. I didn't want to think about any about that anymore and what better way to do that than reading.

I read for a while but than a guard walked into the library looking for me."Sir" I hear, I looked and it was guard Quackity. I smiled and greeted him.

"Your father would like to talk to you" Quackity said as he bowed to me.

My anxiety went up, did she tell him about me and Skeppy. I knew she would do that. I knew she couldn't be trusted. My guard escorted me to my father. I tried calming myself down so my father isn't suspicious of me. I can't have him suspicious of me, that would ruin everything.

My father was on his throne next to my mothers throne."Hello Father, Hello Mother" I greeted.

"Bad" my father called out

"Yes" I replied

He knew didn't he, thats why I'm here. He knows and hes gonna confront me about it. I tried calming myself down but I was terrified if he knew or not. I couldn't lose Skeppy I couldn't.

"I am so disappointed that you left your future wife to hangout with your favorite guard, I know you are close friends but you can't do that" He lectured me.

After he said that everything felt lighter and not as heavy. He didn't know about me and Skeppy. I felt ok now, he didn't know anything. I felt so much relief from that and felt like I could breath again.

"Yes father, won't happen again" I replied

"Good, I don't like you getting close to guards or having close relationship towards them" he added

"I know"

He always said that but didn't really do anything about it. It was annoying but I just ignored it because I knew nothing would happen."We're having another meeting with them next week so be ready" my father said than sent me on my way.

"Yes father" I said than I walked away and went to my room. After a while it got late so I just went to bed. Today was a stressful day and lets hope the future is better for me.

I closed my eyes and went to sleep. I dreamt of a perfect world were I can be free to dating who ever I want. I didn't want to wake up from it, I want to stay in that perfect world.

                     ~End of Chapter 4~