Ethereal

Background

In less than a week I will be starting my senior year of high school. It feels like just yesterday I had just moved to London. 

The only thing I am looking forward to the most is getting to hang out all day at school with Alex. I've known her for over 5 years now, we met in middle school and at the beginning we didn't get along but then we became inseparable.

I got expelled from that school and Alex finished year 10 there and then she moved to London after we got accepted in the same school after I told my mom I wanted to look into this school a friend told me about and she ended up telling Alex's mother. Alex and her mother are like a second family to me, they supported me when I messed up and even after I got expelled from school.

Alex and I have studied in this school for a year now, and honestly it's been pretty okay, we both are on the top of the students on our class and get along with everyone. I never thought I would feel comfortable in a classroom until I met all my classmates. 

They all make going to school bearable.

Oh, I forgot to introduce myself, my name is Mika and I recently turned 18 years old. Only child, parents got divorced when I was in middle school and my dad lives on another continent while my mom travels for work, she spends like a month in the house in total during all year long.
I never had a good or stable relationship with her nor with my dad so living alone doesn't affect me much. Well, I don't live alone, I have a cute dog named Niki and a cat named Moon. They are my precious babies and they help me whenever I'm feeling sad.

Honestly, there's not much more to say about me, I'm pretty average. I play the ukulele, listen to music most of the time and I like reading and cooking.

I have black hair with platinum highlights, I usually dye my hair with more colourful colours. My favourite thing about me are my eyes, they are small and downturned. My nose, oh my nose, is what I hate the most about me, my biggest insecurity. My lips are medium sized with a purple-ish tone, my skin is yellow, and doesn't help I barely go outside.

Now that you know a bit about me and my background let's start this story.

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I've spent most of my summer in my room sleeping or watching movies, the only times I really go out is to stay at Alex's house, to the supermarket or walk Niki. I can't believe almost 3 months went by flying and I'm already buying my books for school, again. Also, I don't really know how I feel about deciding on an outfit for school and doing my makeup five days a week. And I know I don't have to but I cannot leave the house without makeup and it's never bad to have a cute outfit on.

I'm making myself a sandwich when I get a text and look that it's from my best friend, Alex.

Alex <3

Dude, did you check which class you're in? I got 11a

My heart started beating fast with just the thought of having to go through my last year of high school without her. I went to my email app and saw a new email from the school with an attachment showing my schedule and my class number. Took a deep breath and I opened the file, my eyes searched for that number I was looking for until they stopped at the middle of the page next to my homeroom teacher's name

.... 11a.... yes, thank god- I whisper to myself in relief while I text back to Alex.

My stomach was a mess after all this, and yes I know, I get agitated pretty fast and overthink a lot which ends up me thinking in the worst case scenario.

I ate half of my sandwich and opened the fridge to put back what I used and I saw an almost empty fridge with pretty much just soda and a bunch of water bottles. I decided to go to the supermarket so I change into some baggy jeans and an oversized shirt with some converse, grabbed my motorcycle keys and drove to the store. Spent almost 2 hours there and put the things I just bought on this recyclable looking tote bags the store gave me a while ago and hang the heaviest bag on one of the motorcycle handlebars and the other one on my shoulder while I drove back to my house and enjoyed the sun setting while music played on my airpods.

Almost a week passed faster than expected, and Friday came leaving two days until I went back to school. I was packing the necessary things for my first week in my bag and thinking about what I'm going to wear so I don't rush at the last minute and go late to school for my first day of school.

I felt my phone vibrate and open my messages and saw that Alex texted me..

Alex <3

You ready?

ready for what? lol

SCHOOL, what else idiot

yeah, why wouldn't I be ready?

because of him, don't tell me you finally got over him?

oh

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I turn the screen off after sending that message, I forgot about him.

You may be asking who?

His name is Theodore, but let's call him Theo for short. He is 26 years old, and yes, kind of old for me but whatever.

He is the principal of the school I go to, and before you judge me you can't help who you are attracted to. And yes, he is also a bit too young to be the principal of a school but his mother is the owner of it.

After graduating from high school he moved abroad for college and shortly after finishing he started working as a substitute teacher at his mother school. She ended up having to step down as the school principal due to health issues so he took her position.

He started working as the principal in the second semester of my 11th grade and before that he was my substitute teacher like 3 times. And I ended up looking like the dumbest student ever each time he was my teacher. I slowly started noticing him when he would come to school when his mom was still the principal. And ended up crushing on him when he was my teacher and it didn't help starting to see him everyday at school when he took the job as the principal.

I had the goal to forget whatever I felt for him this summer because I knew it was wrong and would only interfere with my classes. I had done a good job avoiding thinking about him by sleeping but I knew I would have him back on my mind sooner or later. After messaging more with Alex I decided to just ignore my feelings for him and if I saw him at school I would say Hi back only if he greeted me first and just avoid him as much as I could. Because I knew he would be the end of me.