Ethereal

Dawn

Monday

This is it, first day of my last year of school.
It's 4 in the morning, haven't slept at all. I can't stop thinking, new school year, probably new students, more difficult classes and him.

I get out of bed, take my phone and walk to the bathroom. Open Spotify and play the playlists I listen to everyday.  I head to the shower and spend almost 30 minutes there.

I wrap myself on the towel, and sit on my bed with my clothes next to me and start my putting on my underwear and bra. Spray some vanilla perfume on my chest and wrist.

I sit on the chair of my makeup table, I start by putting on some primer, then I apply my concealer under my eyes and over my pimples. So after wetting my beauty blender I start slowly tapping then blending it. Then I carefully fill in my eyebrows following my natural shape and do my eyeliner on my inner corner and then I start drawing from next the middle of my lid a straight line far of my outer lid, and do the same on my other eye. I finish by applying a pink-ish dark lipstick tone.

I put on my pair of black tights, then a plain white sweater that's kind of long and start putting a black tennis skirt while tucking in the sweater. To finish with I end by putting some black boots that I usually wear with most of my outfits.

I look at my phone and see it's now 6:30 am, I spent almost 2 hours on getting dress and on my makeup. Honestly, I get lost when it comes to makeup, it's a hobby and a coping mechanism for me.

I walk down the stairs to the kitchen and get out some fruit, yogurt and ice to make myself a smoothie. I sit on the couch while drinking my smoothie, Niki comes sit by my side and Moon jumps on my lap while starts kneading on it. And of course leaving a bunch of white hair all over me. Spent about 30 minutes scrolling on Tiktok and see is time for me to head out for school. Grab my bag, phone, AirPods and keys and start driving to school which is about a 20 minute drive.

It's now about 7:10 am and school starts at 8:00, so I drive to a local coffee shop and buy a iced chai latte with a blueberry muffin for lunch. I get to school 30 minutes before opening and even the man watching the entrance is asleep on a chair. I talk to him on a low voice waking him up, he yawns and a small smile appears on his face while greeting me and letting me inside. I greet him back with a smile and walk inside to my new classroom.

My anxiety starts building up while waiting all alone in the classroom so I walk to the area on the back of the classrooms where cleaning ladies keep mops and things like that where a tall wall is but not tall enough for me to see the street. I take a cigarette out while looking for a lighter which seems I forgot on my bag at the classroom, I get slightly annoyed and decided to head back to the classroom when I stumble into someone. I look up and there it is, that stupid face that makes me melt and almost lose control of my legs.

You okay? - he says with a deep voice but filled with warmth at the same time

I look at him again for a quick second and quickly look down to my shoes - Yes, sorry Principal Montalli- I said quietly but also loud enough for him to hear me

He chuckles and says- Please no need to be so formal, there's no one around- he says while still smiling

I take two steps back while making some distance between us, I had forgotten I still had a cigarette on my hand when he takes a lighter from his pocket while handing it to me. I didn't know what to do, why was he doing this? Isn't this supposed to be against the school rules?