Unexpectedly

Roughing Through It

I awaken to my phone buzzing. Look who it is, the one and only Daniel.

"Why the fuck are you calling me, especially this early in the morning?" I answer sternly.

"Well, good morning to you too. You know you'll never be successful with sleeping in." Daniel grumps back.

"What the fuck do you want?" I question.

"Youre mother stopped by and pleaded that we get back together." He huffs.

"You're kidding, right?"

"No, but I do miss our good times, G. I miss your smile." He states.

"Seriously, all we ever did was argue. The only "good times" we had, were when we'd fuck, and I can't even consider that good." I spit.

"Ouch... Can we meet for breakfast, G? Please?" He pleads.

"No, go fuck yourself." I hangup the phone and groan.

I lay my arm across my eyes. The divorce was rough. We couldn't agree on anything. Usually, everything is split in half, yet he couldn't even agree on a quarter. I have been paying legal fees out the ass because of him. Love never works out. Why am I trying again? I've seen love turn into a deep hate. My parents didn't work out, as much as my father tried. Cora left us. She left us to suffer. It was my father and I against the world. Now, it's just me against the world. It seems as though, everything likes to crumble, better yet, burn in flames at once.

Evidently, Daniel and I hadn't worked out. Before we wed, it was beautiful. We were star-crossed lovers. Our love went through bounds. Our love conquered everything, until we said our vows, that is.

Even our wedding night. What was supposed to be magical, was ripped away, we ended up sleeping in different rooms. Why did I stay with him for so long? Well, it was what I knew. We were together for so long, that I was afraid of losing what I knew... Even though I had already lost it.

I finally decide to get ready, blue jeans and a simple, black long sleeve. I huff, grab my keys, and leave.

~

I find myself at Emma's apartment.

"Regina!" Emma shines.

"Hi Emma." I smile.

"How are you?" She asks, as we walk into her living room.

"I've been better." I laugh slightly, "But, how are you doing?"

"Killian and I are starting couples therapy."

"I am really happy to hear that."

"So, what's going on, G?" She inquires.

"Well, Cora went to Daniel and pleaded for him and I to get back together..." I trail.

"Oh?" Is all he allows out.

"So, Daniel called me this morning, actually trying to get back together" I huff and roll my eyes.

"Are you conflicted?" She ponders out loud.

"No. I'm just tired if it. Cora just wants my life to be this huge ball of fuckery."

"Why don't you block his number, and also block out your mother?" Emma suggests.

"How do I just block her out?"

"Don't feed into her, she'll get the hint... eventually." shrugs.

"You say that, as though you've already done so."

She takes a minute to collect his thoughts, "Neal attempted to come back to, but I didn't allow it. I was not going to let her bring that baggage onto me again." She explains.

"What baggage?" I ask.

"His darkness, his manipulations..." she trails off with many reasons as to why Neal wasn't allowed back.

I nod simply, taking in her advice.

~

Sitting at my father's grave, pains me in more ways than one. Somehow, I always find answers to all my questions, though, when I'm here.

"What do I do, daddy?" I mumble into his grave. "Why does she do this? I can feel his presence there with me. I feel at ease, knowing that he's watching over me. "Love always turns into hate." I keeping saying over and over in my head. But everytime allow it to waltz my brain, something tells me it doesn't. That the cards I have in my hand are completely different than the ones I have been dealt continuously.

Maybe I do have a second chance, with Robin. Love is supposed to conquer all, can our love do so?

Can this truly be another be a "reborn again" thing? I'm reborn to finding love, finding one who truly accepts me for me?

What if it goes down flames again? What of I become this "Evil Queen" that was deemed through my work? I have this anger within that never seems to go away. I was abandoned my mother, my first love treated me like shit. He brought out apart of me I never want to see again. Why did I let him get to me like that? Breaking shit, yelling, feeling crazy, why did I let myself become this? I am better than that, and I will be better for Robin. Robin will never hurt me like Daniel did. Robin won't abandon me, right?