Nicole Marie ↠ Nash G.

27. One and only

Okay guys...this is it.

I'm so emotional over this because this book has literally changed me in so many positive ways I'll never understand. I've made such awesome friends and ugh it's been an awesome journey.

Lauren is so proud of this book, and is so greatful too. This book made me a better writer and well a better person.

I can't believe this book is over :( well...

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Nicole's POV:

We were sitting in the car.

Step Mom, Dad, Cameron and me.

We didn't say a word, we knew what we had in prospective. We knew it would be the last goodbye to Nash, we knew it would be the hardest time of my life. It was hard for me to imagine anything being harder, than getting to know Nash was already dead, and I wasn't even there when it happened.

When he died.

But I could just imagine that this day would be just as hard.

I looked out of the window, but it was curtailed how much I could actually see. It was all blurry by the tears in my eyes. I wouldn't really let them run down my face, because then Step Mom and Dad would notice I was crying -- and I didn't want to talk in the moment. Actually, all I really wanted was to be alone.

When I knew I couldn't be with Nash, then I wanted to be alone.

I guess that was my reaction. Everyone will get some kind of reaction when they lose someone they loved -- it's just very different how you react, and how you decide to handle it. You'll never get over the loss, but when it comes a bit farer away, it'll be easier to deal with.

But it was damn hard for me to see the future. It was damn hard for me, to imagine living without Nash for the rest of my life.

I had a weird feeling of hoping for my life to end soon, so I could just go to heaven and meet him again -- but on the other side, I knew he wanted me to continue living, and to make something big once. To make a difference.

And I wouldn't leave my family either; I know how hard it would be for my dad. He doesn't deserve that feeling again, and especially not Skylynn. She just lost her best friend, and she's just four years old.

But I just lost my everything.

Trust me, that's not easy either. It's not something you get over in a few days.

The car stopped and dad turned around from the seat, to look at me. I sat behind him, with Cameron next to me.

"Are you ready?" He asked.

I knew he meant if I was ready to go out of the car, and into the graveyard. Nash's family chose, that the funeral was going to be outside, and not in the church. I don't know exactly why, but maybe it has something to do with Nash's childhood. I'm not sure, but I could actually imagine he loved to be outside, when the weather was good.

Which it was today.

The sun was shining, and just a few clouds were stuck on the light blue sky.

I nodded, not saying a word.

Dad turned around and got out of the car, together with Cameron, and Step Mom.

I was the last one to get out.

I was holding a bunch of Blue Sweet Peas in my hands, all of them were for Nash. We walked down the graveyard, and nothing got said.