I shivered, not knowing why or how, I had three blankets on top of me. A tingling sensation on my back that made my whole body tense, as if to make a hard shell around my body, bracing itself for the same thing that has been happening for a month.
Every day since that day when I lost something so dear to me, I cried, but only at night when no one could hear the muffled sobs that came from my trembling lips. It took some time but now I don't cry, but whenever I think of it, my chest aches so bad, I shiver no matter how warm I am, uncontrollably. Then I tense, like I am just waiting for something bad to happen.
My heart beats faster that the speed of light, my breath becomes heavy, there it was again, another surge of hurt in my chest. I curled over, still shaking. My head spinning as I started to loose oxygen.
Then a song started playing: Remember Me by Christina Perri. Suddenly everything just stopped, a blood curdling scream that turned into a wailing sob escaped my already shaking mouth. I cried for so long thinking about how I just wanted to be happy again.
I knew that, that could never happen unless I did something about it, every time there was a pain in my chest I breathed and cried if I needed to. If I started shaking I just breathed and thought about breathing and only breathing.
And every time I thought that I was a fool crying all the time I remembered this quote.
"You don't need a reason to be sad because you are a human being."
